Struggling with this really, as my husband was forces, I did my job, stayed in the U.K., he was not for months on end, I raised my daughter alone for the periods he was away, until he came out, carried on with my full time job, had a life, wasn't sitting waiting for him to come out, he did so due to the impact on our child, not me, I'm not seeing the issue?
And mess dos were drunken.