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i feel so worthless

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DaftKid · 30/03/2005 20:10

ive changed my name for this as i sound pathetic, but..its my birthday today,
i got a card from my mum, my dp and dd and one of my brother.
my two best friends havent been in touch, my close auntie and cousins, my s.i.l, nor my friends mum whom i really close too none of them have rang, sent a card, nothing.
been feeling really low all day and havent enjoyed the day one bit.
dd played up all day and acts like she hates me and i feel like i dont matter anymore, feel like im nobody and sick of going out of my way for everybody when no one takes the time out to consider me.

sorry, i said it sounds stupid and childish, but i just feel so sad

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Evesmama · 31/03/2005 22:07

i got a beautiful bouquet of flowers off friend today(closest but not oldest) and were going out for lunch tomorrow, but still no news from anyone else..am still quite miffed about it...!

Evesmama · 31/03/2005 22:05

hi there
yes i do try to get out with dd, but i live in a 'dodgy' area and nothing nice too see within walking distance other than supermarket!

but hopefully now better weather is on its way, i can take her to park close to were we used to live!but now 45min-1hr walk!

ambrosia · 31/03/2005 20:45

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Evesmama · 31/03/2005 20:09

hi ETsmum

i started taking ad's when dd was about nine months old(she's 2 in 2 weeks)
never found any yet that help me, most have given me severe side effects with no improvement.
im on lustral now, and am hoping thes start working soon as this has been going on o long now and i want to 'be normal' again!

and no your not nosy

ETsmum · 31/03/2005 16:54

Hi Evesmama (think I have seen your name on MN before....am quite new....)

Glad that you woke up feeling good this am and hope it's still continuing Can I ask how long you've been on ad's? Took them for a few months after ds was born (should have stuck at them longer) and know how it is to feel low. Your post reminded me of my 1st b'day after ds was born and how awful I felt (just had another one though, and it was much better!)

Don't tempt me with choccy and pizza - I'm SO hungry right now! Anyway, hope I'm not being too nosey and hope you are doing ok.

Evesmama · 31/03/2005 15:04

thankyou for thinking of me..i woke up this morning and felt great!!

and dd was so pre occupied with her new little friend at playgroup, i got two hours(in same room) to sit and chat and eat choccy and pizza(which i took in so i wouldnt eat it

i dont know what it was yesterday???but it was really horrible and very scary

hopefully ad's are back in my system and things will start to look better to me again
thanks again
xx

ETsmum · 31/03/2005 07:35

Hope the black cloud has shifted a bit more this am - let us know how you are doing if you have a minute?

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DaftKid · 30/03/2005 20:30

thanks.
perked up a bit when leaving resteraunt earlier and dp commented on how much better dd was behaving, and i told him that i cant control these feelings and just have to hope they go, once we got home, dd started again and back came the black cloud.

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actualisedad · 30/03/2005 20:17

It doesn't sound stupid or childish to me. Birthdays are pretty crap for loads of people. I hated my birthday for years - had really low self esteem throughout my teens, always got even more depressed than usual in November each year (combination of lack of sunlight and it being my birthday). It just reminded me that I was unhappy, plus the burden of expectation that you are supposed to be happy on your birthday...

I'm sorry you had a low day, and I really hope you feel at least a bit better soon, but please don't think you are pathetic! You're really, really not.

ETsmum · 30/03/2005 20:16

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! At least dp remembered. If only children would know they have to be angelic on your b'day, mothers day etc - know my ds isn't.

Anyway, just wanted to send you a birhtday hug

nnosam · 30/03/2005 20:15

happy birthday. smile we love you here at MN. {{{{{{hugs to you}}}}}}