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dont know what to do

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nowayout · 27/01/2005 13:29

have had pnd depression for 18 months, no better after 4 lots of different ad's, have a cpn, and homestart 'helper' coming round...had my first hour away from dd on tues in 16 months and estranged mam has agreed to have dd once a week while shes asleep so me and dp can go to gym/swimming whatever...
but i fel so so down, crying all the time, snapping, shouting at dd, cant 'control her' even though she's normally good, she's either playing me up or im not handling her well...i dont want to do anything other than sleep or sit on here when dd is craving my attention, dont get dressed most days until dp due in and have no interest in anything..me and dp either argue or dont talk, i feel we have grown so far apart, but dont know where to begin to sort anyhting out.
i feel swamped and everything is spiralling out of control.
im not after sympathy..dont know what i want, i just want to feel normal again, but how do i start?

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Evesmama · 31/01/2005 20:49

have just posted you on another thread
thanks hun, will speak to doc in 4 weeks when i have to go back.feel 'ok' at min, but im like that..thursday frightend me, never felt that bad before, hope i dont again

miam · 30/01/2005 14:22

Sorry Evesmama - didn't realise it was you (silly me!). Your doctor should be able to refer you for CBT. He will tell you the availability and what the waiting list is like. I have just been referred, so am not sure when I will be starting. You are sounding much happier now though, which is lovely. xx

munnzieb · 29/01/2005 20:45

naturally! , not really missing him much yet, althou I have had lionel Richitea on the wireless! lol. It's notrmally weeks 3/4 I start to miss him again, but by that time i'll be half way thru again.

Evesmama · 29/01/2005 20:42

better thanks
how are you? missing dh yet??
plenty of bd going on last few weeks???

munnzieb · 29/01/2005 20:40

all OK here hon, how are you today?

Evesmama · 29/01/2005 20:35

you mentioned that to me before miam, but i forgot to mention it to doc..would it be him that does it?or someone else??
and thankyou

munzie, hope you're well chick?

miam · 29/01/2005 09:36

nowayout - hope you are feeling a little better today. I was just wondering if you had had, or had considered CBT as a way of controlling your depression? xx

munnzieb · 29/01/2005 09:29

sorry hon, I missed you, was chiling out after getting up at 4.30 am to drop DH off in Cardiff. How are things today?

Evesmama · 28/01/2005 09:45

started new ad's yest, am hoping they kick in soon.thanks for everyones concern yest, will return the favour sometime when any of you need it

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nowayout · 27/01/2005 20:08

are you around munzie?

thanks to everyone today, felt a little better after talking to cpn, will have to take one day at a time

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nowayout · 27/01/2005 16:12

crap
have to pop of with dd, be back tonight prob.xx

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munnzieb · 27/01/2005 16:09

her farm? hmmm ok then! lol. it was nice yes, any how, do u want some of this choc or not!?? how r things in general ur end?

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nowayout · 27/01/2005 16:03

hope you had a good time with him at home?
will be of and on as dd wants me to play with her farm and im doing her tea.

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munnzieb · 27/01/2005 16:02

oh right ok then, right, well grab a cuppa hon, cos for the next 10 mins, we're gonna sit here and have a good olde chat. and if you wanna cry you go right ahead, cos i've got more chocs here than whats' good for me, so i'll grab mine and then we'll have a good cry together, (DH has just gone back again)

bundle · 27/01/2005 15:58

community psychiatric nurse

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nowayout · 27/01/2005 15:58

community phychiatric nurse

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munnzieb · 27/01/2005 15:57

whispers what's cpn?

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nowayout · 27/01/2005 15:57

hi munzie, yeah ill be ok i hope, just feeling worse for wear at min(hense the fact i cant post under my alias properly)

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nowayout · 27/01/2005 15:56

sorry, cpn just turned up unexpected and had a good talk..i live in teesside, i did get depressed sometimes before dd born because of my abusive childhood, but today i feel at a real low, just sat and cried most of the time cpn here.

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ebbie22 · 27/01/2005 14:18

no sorry it was meant for nowayout,but hell go on then ...lol.

kernowcat · 27/01/2005 14:11

who me? I don't want to hijacked nowayouts' thread.

ebbie22 · 27/01/2005 14:10

where abouts do u live?

kernowcat · 27/01/2005 14:10

Going to cook special tea just for us and give him a hug when he comes in, just hope he's reponsive.We usually talk and text everyday.

redsky · 27/01/2005 14:09

anyone suffering depression has my sympathy. I've been on and off ADs fro 10 years - my current ones are working really well. But I know how helpless you can feel and isolated - so keep chatting here and I am sure you'll get some good advice.

munnzieb · 27/01/2005 14:07

KC - just stay focused on when he comes back in the door, and the nice evening you'll ahve together, (if the children go to bed early!)