Living with Bipolar

@TopsyTurvyDays , sorry to hear that. Psych care is such a postcode lottery. I'm currently amazed at the level of support I'm getting, I actually have a prescribing nurse doing weekly appointments with me which has never happened before. In general I've not been open to secondary services at all until the last year. The GP has just been prescribing as per instructions for the last 18 years, with the odd exception.

Hi all, my MH assessment is next week and it can’t come fast enough.

i am still taking daytime naps and struggling to get out of bed in the mornings. The school holidays have been a bit busy for my liking and I am sick of feeling so flat but having to keep everything moving along. I am so rubbish at domestic stuff…

On the upside, despite the depression, I’m in the process of signing up with an agency for some pt teaching assistant work. Am hoping that come September I will have had my meds reviewed and be in a better place to start work.

Anyway, hope everyone is making progress with appointments and work searches and are coping with everything they bring.

I'm stepping back from job hunting for a few weeks now to spend time with my daughter. Will pick it up again in September.

How are you today? You still on holiday? Hope you are ok, I know holidays can be trying at the best of times once I was in Ibiza and I spent the second f night having back to back panic attacks and was googling flights home 🤦‍♀️. It got better and I stayed but not exactly relaxing holiday experience!
@TopsyTurvyDays how’s things with you? Have you seen psychiatrist yet?
@Ramblingaway any job news?
In other news have talked to the online fella on the phone and I really like him - we talked for 3 and a half hours on Saturday - never been on phone that long in my entire life! Meeting Thursday 😮 I’m nervous!

What a totally adorable cat! @MarmadukeM. I hope the date goes ok.
I wouldn't know where to start, my partner and I have been together since '06 and as we were only 18 and met in uni halls didn't really "date"

I am glad the arm is recovering ok.

I'm on a family holiday and feeling pretty miserable tonight. I'm hot, I'm low and I'm exhausted and not feeling particularly sociable or in the mood to be around people. The only saving grace is my no 2 having 2-3 naps a day so I get to escape to our room for an hour or so each time.

On the upside, I submitted my application for ESA just before the left and I've had a call to say I have reached the top of therapy list and I have the first of four discovery sessions the week I get back.

I'm sorry you are struggling also @TopsyTurvyDays. Can you get a bit of space from your sister?

It’s getting there slowly. It’s really swollen still but I can do a bit more with it day by day so I’m not as incapacitated as I was lol. It’s the not being able to drive that’s the worst but hopefully I can drive in about 4 weeks x

I had typed a message yesterday but mumsner deleted it and I’m not sure why unless it’s cos it mentioned a dating website? Anyways I was saying that I met someone on a site and been talking to him and he seems really nice so that has been something positive after all the shit that’s gone on. Hopefully am meeting up at the end of the week, it’ll be my first date since 2002 😮

He's adorable x

And here’s the kitten - he’s good company. 😀

How is everyone doing this weekend. I've done two job interviews and had two rejections, so not feeling the best. Thank god for the quetiapine damping things down.

Also my work won’t let me back till next wrist heals. Can’t say I’m that surprised, just have to accept it I suppose. X

Ah I can completely empathise, I know we have different specific circumstances but there is that general theme of one thing after the other, things that would test anyone even in the best of mental health!
all we can do is hope that things improve for us. Sometimes life is just one big shit sandwich!

We have similar @MarmadukeM some years the problems keep coming. I'm glad the op went ok and I hope you recover quickly.

The last 2 years have been similar for me, I was just talking this week about the toll it has had on my mental and physical health with my cpn. In the last 2 years I have had 2 pregnancies with hyperemesis that ended in miscarriage, been made redundant, had a 3rd pregnancy with some serious complications, spent the last year with the physical effects of that. Family ill health, and general family life. It's no real surprise that here I am in a depression that won't shift.

I've been trying to work through the sums and work out if I can put my 2nd into some child care when my daughter goes back to school. I'm due to start therapy and my cpn anticipates that I'll get a slot at the end of August/beg. Sept based on the my position on the waiting list. I've just been issued a 3 month sick note so I can apply for ESA as this would give us access to funded childcare hours which would make putting no. 2 in childcare more affordable on one wage.

I was notified of a position I was hoping to apply for to start in September last week. It's absolutely gutting that I'm not well enough to apply right now never mind do the role. It's quite frustrating and a bit sole destroying. It's coming up 12 months of poor physical health, the GP is stumped and is trying desperately for a service to take me on to figure out what is going on. I feel very stuck by it all.

Thanks xx

Thanks it’s all done and I’m happy with the outcome, only have to wear splint for two weeks rather than cast for 6 and risk of it not healing properly. Yeah I’m pleased I found the tradespeople, they do all sorts so takes some of the stress away of finding someone reliable and available x

@MarmadukeMthats amazing to find a reasonably priced trade, go you!

Good luck for your wrist op xx

Thanks x I’m lucky I got moved in and relatively organised before I had the accident. I’m just in hospital now as they are having to pin and plate it as it’s not in a good position. I’m. Just going to have to try and chill out and find things to occupy myself. I got a painter /handyperson off Facebook and they are charging next to nothing so maybe that will be a good outcome from this that I’ve found someone to get jobs done without ripping me off. X

@MarmadukeMno good advice but hopefully the pain is improving and you can just ignore house jobs for the next few weeks while your wrist heals?

it is so difficult when everything falls on your shoulders but at least you are in your new home and even though it’ll need work, you have done so well to make the move!