I'm sorry to be here feeling sorry for myself again, but my dad has just been diagnosed with cancer, and I feel as if the world has stopped turning. My depression has been much better with the ads, but today I've just felt so bleak and stressed out, and I had a panic attack on the way back from taking my dd to nursery, which has really shaken me up. I've never had one before and I was so scared.
I've always tended to take other people's problems on myself, and I think this is what I'm doing, but I'm so scared of what's going to happen that I can't think straight. I don't even know what I'm frightened of, it's not me with the illness and apparently the prognosis is reasonably good, but it's hit me really hard.