Active discussions

Please or to access all these features

Talk
Mental health

Mumsnet hasn't checked the qualifications of anyone posting here. If you have medical concerns, please seek medical attention.

Original poster

Quivering Mess

93 replies

spacemonkey · 08/10/2004 11:33

I am a quivering mess today. Don't really know why I'm posting this, I suppose this is one place I feel able to "talk". I've been off work for a month and my doctor prescribed prozac but they haven't worked. My mum spoke to my gp on monday and they sent the crisis team to my house to see me. They recommended another month off work and doubled my dose of ADs and gave me some valium. They also liaised with my gp on my behalf and she said she would refer me for counselling. I felt better for a day or two but am now feeling much worse again. And for some stupid reason I can't get myself to the doctor to get my prescriptions. My ds cried this morning and said he didn't want to go to school so I have both my kids at home and no food in the house. I have to wash myself and get dressed and go shopping and the thought of doing that is making me shake. I feel pathetic. Please can someone tell me to pull myself together and do what has to be done. I'm an intelligent woman, I know what I have to do and that in theory I can do it, none of it is that hard, but I feel like crying all the time, I'm shaking and my body feels really really heavy. I slept nearly all day yesterday, then all night and if I went back to bed now I would sleep again, but I'm forcing myself to stay up. HELP! Someone please tell me I'm not mad.

OP posts:
New posts on this thread. Refresh page
MUMINAMILLION · 11/10/2004 23:33

saw it joanneg - and replied! Lovely to see I was missed - my ego (and my head and my grin) is spilling out of this house!

SM so glad you are feeling better . I am fab (helped by the little blue pills ofcourse!). But actually feel happy again - very odd feeling and keep wondering when the bubble will burst. Long live AD's!! Hope yours have settled down - I felt really awful for the first week on mine - really sick, shaky etc. But it was worth it. Hope you can feel the same. xx

joanneg · 11/10/2004 23:08

spacemonkey - glad that things are progressing for you and that you feel a bit better. ((hugs))

THREAD INTERRUPTION ALERT: MIAM - where have you been?? started a thread asking where you are in other subjects tonight

Original poster
spacemonkey · 11/10/2004 23:06

oh thank you MIAM, I'm feeling dramatically better (aided by various silly mn threads this evening)

how are things with you?

OP posts:
MUMINAMILLION · 11/10/2004 23:04

Hi SM - how have I missed this? (Because I've been sulking that's why! How did I think I could possibly keep away?)

Sorry I wasnt around to speak to you when you were feeling so bad. Glad you went to the doc - if you are not up to going to work in 10 days, then don't. Your health is your first priority - money is secondary! (Easy to say eh?)

Hope you are feeling a little better today. xx

October · 11/10/2004 21:01

Message withdrawn

Original poster
spacemonkey · 11/10/2004 20:57

october, you ARE interesting!

GP was very nice today, although she's only signed me off work for another 10 days and frankly I doubt I'll be able to face going back to work by then

OP posts:
October · 11/10/2004 20:55

Message withdrawn

sunchowder · 11/10/2004 20:52

Just checking on you SM, I am glad you are feeling a bit better. Do let us know what happens at the GP. XO Dying to know who October is...

Original poster
spacemonkey · 11/10/2004 13:51

thanks tm, I'm feeling lots better and have a doctor's appointment at 5 o'clock

I really think it was the change in medication that made me feel so dreadful on friday

OP posts:
tigermoth · 11/10/2004 13:49

hope you feel ok today sm and your doctor's appointment goes well. BTW I used to spend all my saturdays at Portobello market running a stall. A very good place to visit ( though not every week!).

Original poster
spacemonkey · 10/10/2004 22:54

Thank you essbee {HUGS} XXX

I am continuing to feel quite a lot better - wondering if the really bad bit last week was down to the increased prozac dose? I'm going to see my GP in the morning anyway as I've run out of all medications now

OP posts:
essbee · 10/10/2004 21:42

Message withdrawn

October · 10/10/2004 21:34

Message withdrawn

Original poster
spacemonkey · 10/10/2004 19:44

aha october, I think I've worked out who you are - am replying to your email XXX

OP posts:
October · 10/10/2004 19:37

Message withdrawn

Original poster
spacemonkey · 09/10/2004 19:52

thanks melsy and MTS XXX

Ha! I highly doubt the £200 will ever materialise. The man is barking mad!

OP posts:
MummyToSteven · 09/10/2004 19:50

glad to hear that you had a lovely day, and fingers crossed that it is starting you off on your way up again.

so have you had £200 in used fivers under the pot plant on the path yet

melsy · 09/10/2004 19:47

So glad to hear you feel better, have been thinking about you today.

Original poster
spacemonkey · 09/10/2004 19:41

yes, lead weights have stayed off all day, and i had a lovely day with dp and ds wandering about portobello road, it was great

OP posts:
tigermoth · 09/10/2004 19:37

Spacemonkey - hope those lead weights have lifted for all of today. Did your ex take back his shit husband statement only or did he take back the promise of the money as well? I'd accept the money whatever the sentiment behind it. Ok £200 sounds like a drop in the ocean compared to the wrongs he has done you. I don't know your full story, but I do know you can have lots of fun with £200!

I feel a bit better - have been rushing around all day, since 9.30. Took cat to new, cheaper vet, got hopelessly lost on the way, got son to his tuition class, dropped off smelly, shitty but better-for-now cat at home, picked up son, too both sons on long car journey to do various bits of boring but necessary shopping and banking. Lovely, just my sort of day...

Anyway, have done the things I needed to do and can relax now.

DelGirl · 09/10/2004 13:05

think you should say 'oh no exdh, you were so right the 1st time and for that, you can give me some more dosh' . glad you are feeling better today SM

suzywong · 09/10/2004 13:01

Buffoon.
ex husband, not you or cheeky rude DP

Original poster
spacemonkey · 09/10/2004 13:00

sorry to hear you've had such a stressful time tigermoth and thank you so much for your messages tm, sm and www. I went to stay with my dp last night, and he forced me out of bed first thing this morning before the lead weights had had a chance to descend. Feeling a lot better, but aware I can't come to rely on him too much.

Ex husband texted me again withdrawing the "shit husband" statement this morning. Fool.

OP posts:
WideWebWitch · 09/10/2004 10:37

Spacemonkey I missed this and am also thinking of you. Don't be so hard on yourself. And if your ex h was a shit husband then 200 quid's not nearly enough!

ScummyMummy · 09/10/2004 08:48

spacemonkey- I missed this yesterday. Really hope you are feeling lots better today, honey. If you ever wanted someone to come over in those sorts of circs, I'd do it like a shot if I possibly could, you know, and chances are i could- we're not that far away. CAT me if you ever need to. xxxxx

Tigermoth- hope you feel better today too, honey.