thread on which to be factitiously Mentally Normal (NOS)

[Mitchy1nge]

nobody was wondering but not only am I still alive, the horribleness of my back pain has completely stopped is all a bit tender and traumatised but hooray for me

and partial hooray for the weirdness that is tramadol I suppose

[Mentalpsychiatrist]

Hooray for tramadol. They make you sick and itchy but the pain goes away.

We have a completely decorated tree and we're a still speaking to each other. I call that a success.

[Mitchy1nge]

are we allowed to see the tree?

tramadol reminded me of dodgy pills back in the day before MDMA was available, have chewed half my face off in my sleep!

[CaulkheadUpNorth]

I'm just raising my head and saying hello, because I've lurked on the last 3 or 4 threads and I felt guilty that you didn't know I was.

So hi. Hope that's ok. As you were.

[Mentalpsychiatrist]

I'd rather not post pictures of my home if you don't mind Mitchy, I have a paranoia about being outed in here. It is rather nice though.

Hello Caulkhead

[Mitchy1nge]

heh at idea of the eagle eyed spotting your reflection in a particularly shiny bauble or something

it could happen! I was just showing polite interest, didn't mean to make you uncomfortable but can understand.

hi caulkhead, is nice to see you, feel I know your name from some thread somewhere

am going to load the dishwasher and do some laundry, devolved all my powers and duties to others for one more day and I miss the horses

[CaulkheadUpNorth]

I had a thread for a while following an od in October, and around that sort of thing crisis teams, trying every med possible etc I think i was referred to htt at the same time as enpo, hence me reading initially to see if her experiences were the same as mine.

I am very mentally normal, and I deal with all situations in the way a mentally normal person would.

[Mitchy1nge]

I don't recall that particular thread but will be great to pool our Mentally Normal coping strategies :)

how have things been since October?

[CaulkheadUpNorth]

I spend a small fortune on whatever the psychiatrist has decided will work (currently quetiapine, citalopram, promazine, lorazepam and zopiclone) and I talk to people I'm told to.
If I've got to the end of the week with the scales saying the same as the beginning, and non mashed up arms all is well.

[Mitchy1nge]

talking to people = some kind of therapy like dbt?

a prepayment certificate might be a good idea with that lot of prescriptions!

[CaulkheadUpNorth]

Private therapist who is incredible and amazing. Then whoever the nhs have decided in their wisdom is right for me. So it's been eating disorder people, cpn, psychiatrist, different cpn, counsellor, another cpn. Current diagnosis is borderline personality disorder. But I am mentally normal, honestly!

[SnowyMouse]

I like NOS!

[Mitchy1nge]

something clicks into place . . . oh maybe that's where I've seen you! Are you using Recovery Record? I started a thread about it

hope you find at least some of those people helpful, I only really like my old cpn, have not found the ED team much use at all. They don't understand me am better off doing my own thing I think

[CaulkheadUpNorth]

Yeh I am.
I'm pretty new to the whole system of seeing people (other than the private therapist) so I haven't got a cpn that "gets" me. The ed team here (large chocolaty midlands city) are useless and will only see you if bmi is below 16.5 or over 30-something. Great. I'm definitely on the do-own-thing club.

[Enpoid]

I lurked on your threads too Caulk

Am still at Mavis's.

[Mitchy1nge]

my cpn isn't my care coordinator these days and hasn't been for ages, have an OT instead am not sure on what basis she still sees me but I'm glad of it because I heart her, she came into my life during a really grim time some years ago

[CaulkheadUpNorth]

Enpo- phew, that makes me feel better! Are you still lurking on my one in the other place?

[Mitchy1nge]

skulking around looking for some sympathy, still feel generally disgusting

have achieved dishwasher and stage 1 of laundry (shove stuff in machine with detergent, switch on) the hard parts are yet to come (dry, put away)

[Mentalpsychiatrist]

Have some sympathy Mitchy.

[Enpoid]

I drop in the other place occasionally to see how you're doing Caulk but I don't follow the gist of the conversation so much now.

[Enpoid]

Glad your back has improved Mitchy
Do yo take antihistamine for the itching?

Finally back home from the zone of liminality and bizarrenes that is Mavis's flat. I think the last time I slept was for four hours on Friday night and I have the eye creepers.

[Mentalpsychiatrist]

Go to bed Enpo!

[Enpoid]

I really should, but fuck it

[Enpoid]

Don't want to start with the whole sleeping duringthe day thing, anyway. Bad move. Will sleep tonight.

[Mentalpsychiatrist]

Sleeping in the day makes me feel vile so I understand why you don't want to do it.

[Enpoid]

Sleepng in the day is Also unlikely to happen unless you're quite sleepy, which im not, despite usage of half a bottle of rum and half a £25 bag of herboid substances. Good weekend. The tree was very nice too. Glad yours went well Mental