Hello and thanks for the replies.
I think the main problem is that they haven't had too many trainees here before and I can compare it with my last firm which is a larger, more professional (as it were) regional firm. They took me on as a trainee here as I was head hunted from my position at my last firm as conveyancing fee earner, I applied (and was awarded, one of 13 people who were and hundreds who applied) a tc with my last firm. But this firm offered more money and was closer (at the time, I have since moved offices!) to home. They said that they would give me a tc and "pay lip service" to the Law Society re: my training. It was basically a training contract in name only. I was to be a conveyancing fee earner, and that's what they paid me.
When the market went tits up I didn't get any of the work, only low value stuff, as the peeps who'd been here for a long time got the work, naturally. So I wasn't earning any fees.
Then they had numerous problems in the private client dept (four women leaving in quick succession, why didn't I take the hint!) and they asked if I would transfer to that office and qualify into private client. Seeing the conveyancing market break down I was happy to do so. Though I had no experience whatsoever in wills and trusts work.
The pressure was on from the start to make up for the missing person in the office. Also there was the fact that now I was a proper trainee, but on a fee earner's wages and they have really, realy resented me for it and mention it at every meeting we have.
I have asked for meeting with the woman I work for mostly to discuss my performance only to be to "C, ** is your training principal". And that's that. I pushed and pushed and said "well I do all my work for you, wouldn't it be prudent to hear what I need to do from you?" to which she replied "Fine, diarise Thursady". It was at this meeting the principal also attended and said that they would expect me to have 40/50 files in my own name by now. I have been here in this dept for 14 weeks (or had been at that time). The first two weeks I had neither a desk nor a computer. I had been shunted from office to office and never were they ready for my arrival. I felt completely unsettled and with my principal working part time it was SO difficult to get a flow of work back to her and back to me going, see what I mean?
I know that my work won't just go up to the standard they want, but I am working towards it, i really am. I try and lodge time how they like, but can't as I have to have confirmation that I can lodge that amount of time and that take so long to get from the woman I work for. It's really difficult to explain.
I seriously think they're just angling to let me go at the end of my tenure.
At my last firm I was billing on average £10000 a month. I would easily, via their excellent case management system, log 7 hours a day billable and if we worked super long days, it could be 12 hours (for those who don't know we work in 6 minute units so we don't actually need to be there for 12 hours!). I just feel like coming here I have taken a massive step back and have lost my confidence.
But I think I will tell them. Though I have only been tired throughout the pgcy so far, not poorly thank goodness! But when I need the time off at least they'll know why.
Oh, and the woman I work for is notorious for being tough to work with and is depserate for a baby, so I am NOT looking forward to her finding out....
I have until April which is when I leave for mat leave to sort out my work, but I swear I am working so hard and double checking everything, it honestly, honestly can't be all me.
Oh and I checked with the SRA and they confirmed that as long as I haven't taken more than 4 months off my tc for mat leave or sickness then I will go onto qualify as a solicitor on 2nd June.
I will have been here one year on 3rd dec.
Shall I tell them today?
(so sorry for essay guys!)