I am currently signed off from stress and I was due to return today but the anxiety made me vomit on the way to the office so I Igot a GP appointment and was told its a stomach bug / stress related. Think its more stress-related than germs.
I am not the main breadwinner by any means due to my long history of job-hopping. I have had in excess of over thirty jobs since the age of sixteen. Longest I have stayed anywhere was eighteen months but that took a huge mental and physical toll on me. I hate my current post and no amount of meetings, chats, plans are helping that - leaving is inevitable.
Ideally I would hand notice in and leave but the company is family run and make it almost impossible to leave. Bribery, emotional blackmail, promises that all will improve or change only for nothing to change all contribute to the stress levels.
I am now 47 years old with next to nothing in my pension pot working in a famously low (?the lowest paying) sector. I want to retrain and get better pay, less than 50 hour weeks and get out of the poor pay bracket.
Having burnt so many bridges how do I even begin to retrain and apply for new jobs away from this area. Hubby is sure I have ADHD due to many things (but definitely my job-hopping) we do not have the money for a private diagnosis due to low pay.
Help me get out of this mess please.
I feel like I am going insane trying to be normal and fit in but I just cannot manage it.