The title says it all really. After being lucky enough to have 4 years as a sahm, I am now in the position where I have had to go back to work. I have been doing it for 3 months and I hate it. I'm tired, grumpy and constantly guilty. I come home from work having taught other peoples children all day, too tired to do fun things with my dd. I have to push myself as I constantly feel guilty. I also hate getting caught in the crossfire of politics at school. I dont care what the majority of these childless 20 somethings think. I want to do my job well and go home, not spend endless hours debating the colour of pen to use when marking as it might disturb a child. It my be disturbing to my own dd that its nearly 6 and im still not home. Decide on the bloody colour and tell me. Im sorry to rant but i really needed to get this off my chest. I havent really told dh the extent of my feelings as I dont want to put any added pressure on him. He really wants to work and is finding it hard to be a stay at home dad. We are in a new country, so this is the way it is until we sort ourselves out, so I know its not forever, but i just cant stand the guilt. By the way I have nothing against 20 somethings or childless people, its just this particular bunch of gits. Sorry for the rant , I must admit its quite therapeutic.