Went and spoke to my lone parent advisor yesterday. We discussed which jobs i'd applied for etc etc and then I brought up the idea of college and he said that to be perfectly frank with me, he thinks it is a great idea, and agreed that I am going round and round in circles.
He said to give myself a cut off point for job hunting, to which I think I said end of July, and then if nothing suitable has turned up by then, then I go to college.
So that is what I am going to do.
I know alot of people will be thinking 'oh yeah college again, lets see how long she lasts this time', but it's a different course, and I will actually be getting stuck in on placements rather than sat in a classroom the whole time.
I will need to sort out my dire organisational issues, but I am confident I can do that and keep it up.
You are right LIZ in that I do want a career, rather than just a job, and yes maybe that is a luxury that I can ill afford, however, I think that two more years of struggling financially, is nothing if it means that I get a job that I am happy in, and that generally improves my life.
I am determined to do this, because there is no way I want to be sat here this time next year typing a similar thread.