Hi all, appreciate anyone reading this and any advice you can give. Will try to keep it brief.
I've been off sick with depression, stress and anxiety for over 5 months due to personal and work related issues. Tried 2 different antidepressants which I couldn't get on with, now on an SSRI which I have taken in the past, but the side effects are relentless. It took around 6 months to work previously, been on it around 2 months at this point. Also taking propranolol for panic attacks. Barely left my flat in 5 months, almost to the point of agoraphobia. No desire to be around other people and purposely wait until later in the day when there are fewer people around to carry out basic chores like food shopping.
Spoke with occupational health once in the time I've been off. Made it clear that aside from personal factors, my current place of work is a major source of my mental health issues. This was 2 months ago. I asked not to have this on medical report, as I would explain this to line manager directly.
So a few days ago, finally speak to manager, mentioned aside from personal issues, it's also work related. She says this is the first we're hearing of it as it wasn't on your med report. Asked what the work related issues are, I remained tight lipped, said it was not the shifts or the work, simply a number of people I have to work with. It's a highly, highly toxic environment and I've been psychologically bullied, have confronted individuals myself rather than get management involved, but that failed. If I returned in my current mental state, I would have a panic attack, do a 180 and go straight back off. She explained unless we know which specific work related issues you have we can't make adaptations which would benefit you. A transfer to another location or different role seems highly unlikely.
In a few weeks I have a meeting with a higher up manager and an HR rep. If I tell them aside from personal factors, it's also work related, will I have to divulge everything? I've stayed tight lipped because I don't need the additional stress of grievances etc, and I know that no matter what adaptations are made, I would still have to work alongside these individuals.
After 6 months I get half pay and can't survive on that. Occupational health suggested severance may be considered if I feel I'm not well enough. Even if I got a transfer/another role, I fear my mental state and medication would force me back out of work. Can they sack me for any reason or would that be unfair dismissal? I'm not with a union so will not have a rep with me. I want to be well again and able to work, but can't put a time frame on when. I've considered paying for therapy if I'm entitled to severance, after 18 years at this company it should be enough for me to live on until getting ontop of my mental health and applying for new jobs.
Sorry if this is a long post, sincerely appreciate any advice.