Thank you for your responses.
@maxelly I have considered asking to drop my hours and I probably should have done this a while ago. I was determined that I could handle my issues on my own, as I have always been able to in the past. I didn’t want to “admit defeat”.
My menopausal symptoms (which I won’t go into, but which are many) really ramped up during lockdown. It has been virtually impossible to get to see a doctor. I have an appointment coming up that had to be booked a month in advance. I’m on Fluoxetine, but not HRT. One of the things that OH suggested was CBT. The school arranged it, but it has only just started.
@nearlyspringyay I have had no written warnings. I’ve had a good shot at meeting the targets, but now that they’re watching me like hawks, I’m being pulled up for every little mistake, which is very demoralising.
@Gazelda The invitation to the meeting was literally one line, which said “to discuss the targets”.
@ChicCroissant There has never been any discussion about how many times we would meet or how long I had to improve. I didn’t think to ask at the meeting, because I was basically keeping quiet in case I made things worse.
@BetteDavies Thank you, that Facebook group sounds good. I might have to join it via an alter-ego though - all the other teachers are my FB friends!
@BlanketsBanned Since the last meeting I’ve had a weekly “mentor meeting” with the Head of Dept, which has actually been really helpful. She has been sitting with me for half an hour, just going through all my classes one by one, making sure that they, and I, have done what they have to and reminding me of deadlines and things. I shouldn’t need this though - I’m not a newbie. I’ve been doing this for 20 years, at this school for 7 years.
@Bunnyjo Thank you for your very detailed answer. I have not been made aware of review dates - I didn’t see this one coming, which I think is why this “HR Lady” email has freaked me out. I’m in a union but I actually don’t think that there is a rep in the school - because it’s a private school.
@NotMeNoNo Your “lots of mistakes” employee sounds like me. I just keep messing up. I’m confused and exhausted, but I love my job. When I’m in front of the class, everything is fine. I know my subject inside out. But when it comes to the admin I’m hopeless.