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Never getting anywhere in the workplace..again!

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malificent7 · 24/09/2021 18:46

Started a new job after gaining a first in my healthcare degree. However i posted on the workplace thread about my workplace issues. Mainly fitting in with staff.
Well today they told me they can't hire me on the permanent contract as i made too many errors.
I was put in charge of students...i have just graduated....there was no support. One student knew i had just graduated and was trying to tell me how to do my own job! People just make me so anxious in the workplace and then i make silly errors with big consequences.
At the heart of this i know is just the fact that i can't do my job properly.
My dad says i shouldn't loose confidence...but i can't seem to do any job propely but i feel very worn down and depressed by it.

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malificent7 · 24/09/2021 18:46

Rime to get my autism assessment i feel.

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malificent7 · 24/09/2021 18:47

Time*

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PlanDeRaccordement · 24/09/2021 18:55

Sorry to hear that OP. Many high pressure professions like healthcare have a sink or swim attitude. Perhaps you could use your healthcare degrees transferable skills to get work in a less pressured but nonclinical healthcare related field?
-Editor of health research papers
-Healthcare journalism
-Procurement healthcare supplies and services
-Graduate assistant at a university for your degree Department.
-Project management of healthcare programs

PlanDeRaccordement · 24/09/2021 18:56

You got a first in your degree so there is a job out there for you. You just haven’t found it yet.

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malificent7 · 24/09/2021 19:19

I'd love to do research as i loved my research project...i was dreaming of becoming a sonographer but so far it aint hapoening. I was only there for 3 weeks and for most of the time they put me in an unrelated department. It's horrible to think that other professionals think you are shite.

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theturtleshead · 24/09/2021 19:23

I have similar issues at work. I believe I have inattentive ADHD. It presents differently in women. If you are considering an ASD assessment maybe look at this too Flowers

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malificent7 · 24/09/2021 19:40

Will do. Very upset...this student was undermining me abd i couldn't cope.

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findmeaholiday · 24/09/2021 19:58

Sounds like you are very good at your job and very capable, but you're too easily influenced by others

PlanDeRaccordement · 24/09/2021 20:00

Research sounds really awesome. Not many people have the talent for it. I do aerospace research and development (space satellites, launch vehicles). I also have ADHD the hyper-focus variety.

Play to your strengths. I don’t like being around people either. They make me impatient and jittery. Running my own research program, doing my data collection and analysis...love it! Numbers/maths behave so much better than people. And they don’t talk back. :)

Seriously, just because being a clinical worker in trenches isn’t for you, doesn’t mean anything is wrong with you or you are terrible. Everyone has a niche they can fill and do well in.

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malificent7 · 24/09/2021 20:05

True...im a bit gutted about that but im open to options.

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malificent7 · 24/09/2021 20:12

I think it's because i've repeated this pattern in so many workplaces.

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theturtleshead · 24/09/2021 21:06

Slightly off topic but Psychiatry UK seem the best place to go for private ADHD / ASD assessments. Reasonable prices too. Long waiting list but they have cancellations if you look online Flowers

theturtleshead · 24/09/2021 21:10

@malificent7

I think it's because i've repeated this pattern in so many workplaces.
Me too. My pattern is starting very well, learning well. Then when the job becomes more day to day the attention span starts to break down and I drift... Mistakes get made, the more I try to concentrate the worse the anxiety gets, which causes more errors... It sounds simple to fix but I am always thinking about 6 things at once, am unable to multitask without it affecting my performance down the line.
theturtleshead · 24/09/2021 21:12

Love your username btw Grin

LIZS · 24/09/2021 21:27

It sounds lime you have imposter syndrome which comes across as a lack of confidence and self doubt. Are you actually making errors or just not meeting your expectations? If you are challenged have a stock phrase so you can a knowledge and move on. If you do not know the answer there is no shame, admit it , tell them you will check and cone back to them. Be proactive and ask for more support. Have you declared any disability in your applications?

PurpleOkapi · 24/09/2021 21:56

Not everyone is good at managing people. Fortunately, not every job requires it. Depending on what your degree is in, there are probably a lot of other jobs you can do with it where this won't be such an issue.

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malificent7 · 24/09/2021 22:55

My job was not a manager of people...students were foisted on me....im new to the profession and was a student myself 4 months ago!

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LIZS · 24/09/2021 23:12

Then you need to stand up for yourself. Ask for a review with your manager and tell them it is too much to have to train them before you have experienced the job yourself.

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malificent7 · 25/09/2021 06:38

I have mentioned this in a letter to HR which I will send on Monday. It was not in my job description.
Basically i knew i had been making mistakes and was feeling increasingly stressed and anxious about it. So boss hauled me into the office with 5 things that he was very very concerned about...including my patient care and professional attitude. The professional attitude was that i left a patient alone. Well the patient had been feeling unwell and a bit rosy and had complained about high blood pressure. I got her a drink, took her to reception and let them know she needed a nurse and they told her to sit i reception. Apparently i should have sat with her but i asumed the nurse would ve there...i had other patients to attend to.

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malificent7 · 25/09/2021 06:44

The manager dosn't want me anyway. The job offer was band 4 bank work and then when my HCPC registration came through, band 5. My registation came through 3 weeks ago but he has kept me on a band 4 i think to see if im good. I havn't been.
With regards to above patient apparently she was fine and my boss said she was apparently being a " bit dramatic." I know that's not the point but i had other patients to atrend to and i did report her to reception.

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malificent7 · 25/09/2021 09:40

Spent all last night crying about this. Feel totally useless.

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theturtleshead · 25/09/2021 10:07

@malificent7

Spent all last night crying about this. Feel totally useless.
I've felt this way all my life. There is support there now (I'm late 40s so have missed out on it all) but I'd seriously advise going for an ASD ADHD assessment if you can. However, it is career suicide to disclose ADHD so make sure you describe it as neurodivergence. If only I'd known when I was younger. The grief I feel at lost opportunities, loss of career, is immeasurable Sad
theturtleshead · 25/09/2021 10:08

You really don't sound like you are being supported in a new job. It's not all you Flowers

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malificent7 · 25/09/2021 13:04

Thank you...it also feels that my face dosn't fit anywhere...feeling very demoralised etc.

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SpeakingFranglais · 28/09/2021 18:43

@malificent7

I'd love to do research as i loved my research project...i was dreaming of becoming a sonographer but so far it aint hapoening. I was only there for 3 weeks and for most of the time they put me in an unrelated department. It's horrible to think that other professionals think you are shite.
So do you have a radiography degree? I wouldn’t expect a newly qualified radiographer to be in a department anywhere near sonography, that’s not how it works. I would expect as a newly qualified you would be doing grunt work in general X-ray, mobiles and theatre.