Apologies now because I'm going to have a rant and a weep.
I'm due to go back to work in september after taking a year off. I'm a teacher and I took the councils half pay maturnity leave which means that I have to go back to work or I'll have to pay the money back. And we can't afford to pay it back so it gives me no choice at all.
However I had hoped to go back part time. A colleague and a friend of mine whose baby is 6 months older than mine has just gone back to work. She applied for part time but was refused on the grounds that our head doesn't believe in job share and that she had no-one to do a job share with and that he'd have to advirtise. However if i applied and put her down as my job share partner then we might be able to.
So I was fairly happy that this was what would happen.
But yesterday she rang me to say that she's just found out she's pregnant again, and the baby would be due in october - which means she definitly won't be coming back to school in september. She absolutly hated going back full time and said she wouldn't be going back at all even if she wasn't pg. I'm not angry at her at all. She's a good friend of mine and I fully understand how she hasn't been able to cope with a full time teaching job abd bringing up a baby so I've no hard feelings at all about her.
But it does mean I probably will have to go back full time or have no job, no money and owe the council thousands of pounds.
I've done nothing but cry since I found out yesterday and didn't sleep a wink last night. I really really don't want to leave my ds with a stranger just because I have to go back to work.
The irony of it is the deputy head only teaches about 2 days a week and the rest of the time has various supply teachers in to cover her 'very' disruptive class. If I were to be that cover thenthe children would have a much more balanced and structured education, but my head has made his views known and when I've said I think my ds deserves to have his mother for a much as possible he said
'well there's always the holidays'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I hope ds does all his mile stone bits during the hols, when I'm not planning, assessing, doinging records, writing reports or preparing then.
