I really couldn't fault the policewoman. It's a special unit she works in. She has done absolutely everything she can to make it as easy as possible for me. She rings when she says she will, updates me when she has information I am allowed to know. I've not had to speak to any other police officer than her. I have her mobile number. She organised other support for me. The horrific things that she must hear every day
. She has kids of her own. I couldn't do her job but I'm very thankful she can.
It's the court system. They have to know all about previous abuse as the defence may say that I was confusing the offence with another
. They have to look through my counselling notes to see whether i mentioned it to the counsellor (the case is not about the worst abuse i suffered so most of my counselling had been about the other stuff).
And yes, the court case has been worse than the original offence (this case is about assault not rape). However I have been raped and this court case is still worse. It drags on for ages, apart from the intrusive questions it also perminates into all of my relationships. It affects my relationship with my dp, with my kids, with my family who have never been supportive. My work have had to be told, my friends have been questioned and have to give evidence. My relationship with my mother will never be the same. I'm hypersensitive to things that I wouldn't have given a second thought to before. My case involves a certain type of institution where this sort of thing is sadly too common (think boarding school or cadets group type set up). The 'institution' pays for a dedicated support worker, almost unlimited private counselling and probably anything else I could ask for. It's still been horrific. Sadly the girl in the op wouldn't have had any of the extra support i have been given and her offence was much worse than mine. She must be devastated now 
. I don't know how i will feel if he gets off. The policewoman told me that not guilty actually means not proven beyond all reasonable doubt and beyond all reasonable doubt is very difficult to prove. Doesn't mean that he didn't do it and could mean every one of the jury was 95% sure that he did.