Personally I don’t think I would of chosen to have a child if I knew I would be in constant pain for years and have no sex life. It’s a lot to deal with at 26.
Please don’t put up with that Cinderella, keep trying for help.
40 years ago for me these matters were not discussed. Sex was impossible after my VB, I felt more of a freak every time someone announced they were expecting their second. My XH even went to our GP after I’d got nowhere, he was just told to be “more of a man” i.e. just force himself in! Bloody barbaric.
I was eventually given vaginal trainers, but they were made of glass and I was terrified of them shattering under pressure after I’d eventually forced even the smallest one inside me.
What did help was time. Over a decade later I had a second child, I kept my fears about the birth to myself throughout the pregnancy, but I was dreading it. My second delivery required no intervention or stitches, I couldn’t believe the difference. Could have jumped off that delivery bed and danced all the way home.
There is hope Cinderella, please don’t give up, you are so young.