Lump in breast confirmed...

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And im terrified. I've been fast tracked to an appointment at the breast clinic this Sunday.
Everytime I stop, I want to cry. Most of the time I do.

Does anyone have their own story?

@frogprincess84 oh no. She will mean well but I can understand where you are coming from as it just keeps it in your thought. We can never win really, we either tell no one and feel scared and lonely, confide in someone and they say very little or nothing in a way to remain positive, or we tell someone and they show support by constantly talking about it with you.
I felt like you on the day of my appointment. Mine was at 2.10 and i found the hours passing before not too bad to be honest. I wish you luck and will hear from you later hopefully xx

@frogprincess84, hope you're okay, thinking of you today xx

@NGC2017 @custardee thank you my dears, and thank you to everyone who has written on this thread even from the start because your replies and advice to other users really helped keep me sane. This is MN as its finest. Not long back from the hospital - had 2 large cysts drained then and there, ultrasound showed nothing of concern for the consultant. Relieved is an understatement. Came home to an email saying I hadn't got a job I interviewed for last week but I honestly don't even care.

There’ll be other jobs! Good news indeed.

Great news frog. It put’s everything into perspective doesn’t it.

That is brilliant news @frogprincess84, so pleased for you that all is well, good that they drained them at the time too. I was amazed how not-sore that was when they did mine. Sorry about the job, can't have been the right one for you, firmly believe all the 'Whats for you won't go by you 'thing! Better things ahead for you. Hope you get a good sleep tonight, the relief from the worrying is great :-)

Excellent news @frogprincess84rog. The relief you feel when they tell you there is nothing to worry about is so welcome after all that waiting and worrying! I'm glad they also drained them there for you. Scary to think how fast the one grew though.
Sorry to hear about the job, but as said before it wasn't the right one for you. There are better things ahead. Totally get the not even caring part. Things like this puts life into perspective. As silly as that sounds! When you wait in the hospital and look around you, You realise how lucky you are. When I sat in the hospital the other day there was a younger girl like me, a lady going through cancer and some older patients. There was a women who came out a room white as a sheet and had been crying. It's selfish to think of yourself but I am so so so grateful that I received reassuring news. Alot of my other worries are absolutely nothing. So that stone (near enough) I've gained this year and the dress size I've gone up is the last of my worries.

@frogprincess84 I've been reading but not had much time to reply, but just wanted to say I'm so pleased it was good news for you. Enjoy your weekend. X

Thanks again all. Would not have got through it without this thread. Yes, it really puts everything in perspective doesn't it? I was so struck by how busy the clinic was. All those poor women going through the same thing. One poor lady called to change at the same time as me couldn't even speak to give her name, she was so afraid. I went into protective mode and helped her pick her gown size and put her things in the locker and tried to reassure her. Think they must have fast tracked her in and out because of it because by the time I was seen by the consultant - which was about 10 minutes wait - she had been in and out twice and was ready to go. Got good news, but still pale as a sheet. I will be thinking about her face for a long time.

Sorry to post back on here. But hope everyone is well.
Today was a week on from my appointment and the discomfort is finally reducing.
I served a lovely customer at work who turned out to be recently diagnosed with breast cancer which is suspected to have spread. She was just lovely but the pain behind her eyes really upset me. She too has kids, 2 young daughters. She was in her early 40s and though she put on a brave face you could just see how it was taking its toll on her and her husband. They loved each other so much. She is basically going through my worst nightmare. I felt even more incredibly lucky for my positive news only a week to the day ago but to meet someone who is having to live what I was fearing has really got to me

I've been reading this thread on and off for the past week. I had a lump confirmed last Wednesday and have a referral to clinic on Monday. I have to confess that I'm pretty scared. I'm trying really hard to not think about it but it's there, in the background, all the time.

@madvixen I am never going to play down how scary it is. I totally understand your fears and share them. I am also in no position say everything will be OK but what I will say it seems we have all received amazing knowledge from the Consultants we have seen and if there is anything untoward then they will act very fast. Please try and keep positive your referral will soon be here x

@madvixen Just checked in to the post to see how everyone doing a c saw your comment....we all know how hard the waiting is, hope you've got your appointment date now. Such a worrying time but try hold onto the huge percentage of referrals that are benign xxxx

I'm almost laughing at myself typing that cos I was a nervous, sleepless wreck...we do know what you're going through, sending strength to you x