Hello
Verbena87 and littlecabbage I really hope you are still here.
I came across this thread whilst desperate googling prolapse.
I had my 3rd child 12 months ago and have had a smear since with no problems noted however it was after my 2nd child that I noticed a few small problems such as needing the loo soon after having been. But this only ever really happened occasionally so I did not think much of it. Then once when I was on the loo I thought everything seemed “lower down” I mentioned at my next smear but was told everything was fine and put it down to my menstrual cycle/life after kids.
Now I am certain there is a problem. I am still breastfeeding but last week started to have occasional spotting down below but not in the way that comes with periods. This feels different. I feel heavier down below and I feel uncomfortable but am not in pain, it’s like a tampon is falling out of me. I looked using a mirror and I can see something partially protruding (TMI sorry!) but I’m not sure what it is.
I feel very frightened and embarrassed. I have just turned 40 and lead an very active life and sex life and am really scared about what this means for me going forward.
I know I need to see a urogynaecologist but am finding it really difficult to find a recommended one as there’s such little out there in the way of direct experience and I don’t know anyone else who has gone through this.
I am training to run the Marathon. It’s been an absolute lifetime ambition of mine. I have worked hard since mid January to increase my fitness but now realise that this has probably contributed to my problem. The run is in 10 weeks time and the thought of having to drop out is making me feel utterly devastated. I have raised money for charity and feel so upset as running is the one sport I have been good at and enjoyed, at risk of sounding melodramatic the thought of not being able to run really makes me feel depressed.
I ran long yesterday and do not feel any worse down below but am very concerned about causing more damage.
I am terrified of being told I can’t do this and genuinely feel it’s effecting my mental health already.
I purchased an Elvie pelvic floor trainer today but am too worried to use in case I cause more damage. Do either of you use this or something similar? I wasn’t sure what the zapper actually was!
I realise I need to to see someone as quickly as I can so they might help me find a solution to enable me to train and run the marathon as planned without the fear that I’m currently experiencing so I’m planning to go private.
Do you think it will be possible for me to push through to participate? Perhaps using a pessary?
I know that after this I will have to make some changes but I really need some help to get through this so any recommendations you can give me would be appreciated.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.