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Please help me find this book I borrowed from the library in 1990!

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FantasticButtocks · 14/12/2022 18:03

Not much to go on, sorry...
It had a brightish blue cover.
No idea of author or title, but either the husband or the baby was called Stephen/Steven, think it might actually have been the baby. Don't think the marriage was great. The mother suffers with intense loneliness and depression pnd after the birth, husband not very supportive or maybe doesn't understand... but eventually she finds something that interests her, can't remember what, maybe she starts to study, and starts to feel more human again. She starts going out and about with the pram, and also getting into her subject, she sometimes reads on a bench in the park. One day when she's doing this, very absorbed, the unthinkable happens and her child drowns in the pond.
She blames herself. Her husband blames her.

Very grim and sad, I read it when I'd just given birth to my first child Sad
I've looked for it often, without success and I'd be so grateful if anyone recognises it.
Thanks Smile

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FantasticButtocks · 15/12/2022 22:19

Is it too ridiculous and far fetched to say that it was Stoke Newington library? Xmas Grin

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BernadetteRostankowskiWolowitz · 15/12/2022 22:19

Dunno but I'm here for the reveal, I want to read it.

MadameMackenzie · 15/12/2022 22:21

How miserable and depressing

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FantasticButtocks · 15/12/2022 23:19

MadameMackenzie · 15/12/2022 22:21

How miserable and depressing

Yes it was. But I'd still like to know what it was that I read.

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Yajebbend · 16/12/2022 00:53

Bump so you find your 📕

Snozzlemaid · 16/12/2022 01:15

Do you have an online library account?
I do, and I can look back at all the books I've borrowed on my account.
I'm sure mine goes back years and years, so might be worth a look if you can.

fifteenohfour · 16/12/2022 02:02

www.bibliophilebooks.com/thedrownedboy

fifteenohfour · 16/12/2022 02:08

Sorry to ask your age but if you have just had your first baby and you read this book in 1990 you must of been very young when you read it? I'm 37 and was 5 in 1990 so are you an older mum? Is it possible it's a young adults novel?

FurryDandelionSeekingMissile · 16/12/2022 02:16

OP had just had her first baby in 1990 when she read it, fifteen, so it might not be worth going down the YA rabbithole.

I guess that makes OP's baby about 32 now… eek.

PermanentTemporary · 16/12/2022 07:43

Blimey fifteenofour that title would be a bit of a plot spoiler in the OPs case.

Intrigued by this but I haven't found anything. It makes me think how few novels survive to be remembered even a decade, a trend made much worse by ebooks.

RainyReadingDay · 16/12/2022 09:47

Could the author have been Kathleen Conlon? I read one of her novels back in the 80s, My Father's House, which was adapted also for TV then. It was a bit of a misery fest. I didn't read any more of her books but the premise sounds a bit like it could have been one of hers. If so, then they all appear to be out of print now.

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FantasticButtocks · 16/12/2022 10:00

Snozzlemaid · 16/12/2022 01:15

Do you have an online library account?
I do, and I can look back at all the books I've borrowed on my account.
I'm sure mine goes back years and years, so might be worth a look if you can.

I don't think 'online' had been invented back then!! Xmas Grin

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FantasticButtocks · 16/12/2022 10:06

fifteenohfour · 16/12/2022 02:08

Sorry to ask your age but if you have just had your first baby and you read this book in 1990 you must of been very young when you read it? I'm 37 and was 5 in 1990 so are you an older mum? Is it possible it's a young adults novel?

Gosh I thought you'd got it with The Drowned Boy, but no sadly that wasn't it. Thanks for the suggestion.

No I haven't just had my first baby, I'm 58!!
I had just given birth to my first baby in 1990 when I read the book!

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FantasticButtocks · 16/12/2022 10:07

FurryDandelionSeekingMissile · 16/12/2022 02:16

OP had just had her first baby in 1990 when she read it, fifteen, so it might not be worth going down the YA rabbithole.

I guess that makes OP's baby about 32 now… eek.

Correct, my baby is now 32!

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FantasticButtocks · 16/12/2022 10:09

PermanentTemporary · 16/12/2022 07:43

Blimey fifteenofour that title would be a bit of a plot spoiler in the OPs case.

Intrigued by this but I haven't found anything. It makes me think how few novels survive to be remembered even a decade, a trend made much worse by ebooks.

Yes, true, I think I'd have had an idea what it was going to be about. But I still went and looked it up to make sure...

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Snozzlemaid · 16/12/2022 10:21

My library account shows books I borrowed way before I had an online account as it's all linked to my library card account.
I was surprised how far back it went when I looked.

CambsAlways · 16/12/2022 10:23

Have you asked the librarians

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FantasticButtocks · 16/12/2022 10:24

Snozzlemaid · 16/12/2022 10:21

My library account shows books I borrowed way before I had an online account as it's all linked to my library card account.
I was surprised how far back it went when I looked.

Ah, thanks 😊 No, I don't have a library account and haven't been a library member for decades 📚

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Snozzlemaid · 16/12/2022 10:25

Just checked my account and it goes back to 1996 which I'm pretty sure is when I joined as it was the year before I had my first dc and I remember borrowing baby books.

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FantasticButtocks · 16/12/2022 10:26

CambsAlways · 16/12/2022 10:23

Have you asked the librarians

I haven't. It's been 30 years since I even lived there. Not having the title or the author, just the fact the book was blue and had a baby called Stephen in it isn't really enough of a description I don't think.

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CambsAlways · 16/12/2022 10:30

Aw that’s a shame we have 3 librarians at ours all over 60 years old I will ask them for you , I’m there next week, what they don’t know you could write on a postage stamp🤣. It’s worth a try op.

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FantasticButtocks · 16/12/2022 10:39

CambsAlways · 16/12/2022 10:30

Aw that’s a shame we have 3 librarians at ours all over 60 years old I will ask them for you , I’m there next week, what they don’t know you could write on a postage stamp🤣. It’s worth a try op.

Much appreciated, thank you! I'll be bowled over if they recognise it!

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RUNPMTS · 16/12/2022 10:41

I thought maybe A special relationship by Douglas Kennedy because the mother in that has post partum psychosis but it wasn't published until 2003. So I'm no help, sorry 🙄

CambsAlways · 16/12/2022 10:44

FantasticButtocks I will ask for you but whether you will be able to obtain it now could be a different story( no pun intended ) worth a try though

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FantasticButtocks · 16/12/2022 10:54

RUNPMTS · 16/12/2022 10:41

I thought maybe A special relationship by Douglas Kennedy because the mother in that has post partum psychosis but it wasn't published until 2003. So I'm no help, sorry 🙄

Yes, I've read that too, and actually all his books I think. He writes women so well I've often wondered if he actually is one!

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