Feel like crap this morning- stomach cramps, palpitations walking down the stairs, tired, grumpy…. Oh, what a delight I am! I was in a really crappy mood last night as well, dh and I are going away this weekend and I have basically no nice clothes that fit me anymore. One pair of jeans, which fit, but I don’t actually like them. I do have some dresses but it’s not warm enough for them. So I spent the evening feeling cross and grouchy and like it’s all a lot of effort for not a lot of results. I’m actually heavier now than I was on 1st April (not due to this, due to the ridiculous amount of chocolate and rubbish I ate in the first half of the month) and I was supposed to be running London marathon this weekend except I had to pull out at Christmas due to being really unwell, so I feel a bit sore about that (in a kind of sliding doors kind of way, I would never have got the training in).
anyway. I will do my best today to try to keep on the straight and narrow. I’m going to venture up into the loft to rummage around for something to wear tonight and tomorrow that is a bit nicer. I coloured my hair yesterday at least.
food today- I’m bored of my repetitive breakfast and lunch options, I think I will amalgamate into a brunch and have eggs, avocado, tomatoes and mushrooms. Dinner will be at the spa restaurant so I looked last night, it’s all lovely sounding. I may end up having my first alcoholic drink this year although the thought of it actually turns my stomach a bit, but I imagine once there I will fancy one.
tomorrow I will be completely at the mercy of hotel breakfast, bakery lunch and tapas restaurant for dinner so that’s going to be a write off, although we are going to hike a bit of the malverns and there is a hotel gym, which I always quite fancy but then feel too self conscious to actually use. I will take my kit anyway, even if I just bang out a few fast kms on the treadmill.