DIET FAILED AGAIN thread 6- everyone welcome

[thenewaveragebear1983]

We made it to 1000 posts on thread 5, here is thread 6

Hi everyone

I've been MIA on purpose because my eating is totally out of control and I am so miserable.

Unusually for me I've been eating out a lot, nothing fancy, but DD, SIL or DP keep suggesting meals out and of course I just have to. But it's the chocolate consumption that is out of control and I really must do something about it.

DPs cat has been to the vets and they've found both kidney and liver problems so he is devastated and spending more time with her. This gives me every afternoon and evening alone with no one to check on exactly how much rubbish I'm consuming.

I am so sick of myself and I'm very very down at the moment about both my weight and eating patterns. I fear I won't do well until new year now. I've got November birthdays and the Christmas gluttony to overcome so I'm hoping to at least maintain for two months

I will check in more often because you all inspire me but I don't want to bring the tone down, I need to bloody cheer up.

@thenewaveragebear1983 I'm well impressed with your limited phone use and I feel I should do the same. The problem is I don't watch TV so I'm on my iPad all evening. I really should follow your lead.

Tomorrow I am planning a dog walk and very little else so I'm hoping on Monday to cheer up and get back on the wagon for at least a little time.

Lovely to read how you are all doing and I hoping to post more often as soon as I feel better about myself. I wouldn't let my dogs eat the rubbish and quantity I eat so I must treat myself the same.

Have a lovely weekend.

@poorpaws I am finding it really hard to be honest. I've allowed myself a bit of phone time each evening, but during the day really tried to curb it but it's difficult.

Today I tried to keep busy, I completely cleaned our side passage/lean to- it was absolutely grim. Did a few errands with ds. I would have had a really successful day except dh decided he wanted to do a bonfire, he decided he was cooking- then didn't put baked potatoes in until 6 so we were hanging around, the dog was barking every time a firework went off in the neighbourhood so I sat inside with her- I ended up having 2 glasses of Prosecco that I didn't even want and a few toasted marshmallow after my dinner. It was nice, but I could absolutely have done without it.

I'll he honest, I'm quite tired and grumpy today. I didn't sleep well last night and had bad dreams which woke me up. I have a weeks annual leave starting from Wednesday and I cannot wait, except the bathroom fitters will be here so it won't exactly be relaxing.

In other, more exciting news though.... my upstairs bathroom is very very nearly complete, it just needs painted! And hopefully the downstairs loo won't take too long. We can use it from tomorrow and keep cannot wait for a long soak in a lovely bubbly bath 🛀

@thenewaveragebear1983 omg that is so lovely, just my taste and I'm so envious. I have a tiny bathroom (green of course) and I miss the gorgeous large bathroom I used to have a long time ago (also green).

I feel so, so low today. I don't know if it's the dog and DPs cat being so ill, my weight and lack of food control or I'm just thoroughly fed up with everything. I love time alone, as you all know, but today I've been thoroughly miserable and I've buried my misery in a ton of chocolate.

Early night is the answer and a new start tomorrow.

Morning, official weigh in: 9st9. No change this week. I'm learning that I can maintain pretty well with my current lifestyle- even when I'm busy, I can maintain as long as I don't try and fix tiredness with extra food.

But losing weight, means focusing on that for at least 3 to 4 consecutive days in a week. Meal planning, scheduling exercise and remembering not to snack on treat food. It takes a lot of head space and when things are busy I just don't concentrate on it or give up because there's no time to exercise.

I'm wondering if I need to plan to make a really concentrated effort on less hectic weeks to lose a pound or two, and accept that busy weeks are going to be about maintaining.

@thenewaveragebear1983 your bathroom looks lovely. It looks like such a calm and peaceful space

@poorpaws I'm sorry you're feeling so low. You do have a lot to deal with. You do have us all cheering you on. Don't beat yourself up, you've accomplished a lot these last few weeks. Bet your home is feeling a lot better after all your decluttering. Hope today is a better day

Good morning! Thanks all 🍃

Just checking in.i weighed in, I've maintained this week, so I'm still 158lbs - not ideal but to be fair it's been a crazy week and not really on plan.

Today I'm making a roast chicken dinner, lentil and bacon soup, and a slow cook casserole for tomorrow night. I've walked the dog and I'm just having a coffee before heading out for a run. I have another list of jobs to get through so I'll be putting a podcast on and blasting through a few chores this afternoon.

Happy Sunday!

@Storyland thank you for your kind comments. You are doing so well and to still maintain at a low weight is perfect. Don't push yourself too hard, you are doing brilliantly.

I've had a tough day of misery, given myself a good talking to and I'm done with the pity party.

Tomorrow I will weigh, I know it will be harsh but knowing the full facts will help me deal with what I know I must do. I have the scales out ready for tomorrow morning and November/December are going to be difficult months to lose anything in but I am going to try.

Even if I only lose a few pounds in the next two months it will help towards the new year inevitable new start 🫣. At least when I'm trying, I don't give in to the ridiculously high amount of chocolate and sweets, which I feel contribute to my low mood.

Tomorrow is a new day, I've got a lot of jobs to do so really I shouldn't have time to sit eating chocolate and feeling sorry for myself.

So wagons roll again tomorrow and I'll see if I can hang on.

Good morning everyone

I was up early and the scales were out. It's not good news, but I already guessed that. 11st 10lbs which is very high for me and I hate double figures on both sts and lbs ☹️

Instead of sitting here moaning I intend to do something about it. I have a few birthdays in November (including my own) and of course Christmas is a nightmare but instead of going into full glutton mode I intend to do my best and at least lose some pounds.

I don't like Christmas but I love Easter and I've worked out it's 24 weeks from today to Easter Monday. Now surely with some effort I can look like a supermodel by then 🤣

So I have a long term plan, slow and steady wins the race and by Easter 2025 I need to have lost a lot of weight. I've started recording my weight with pen and paper so I have no excuse.

If anyone fancies a long term goal please join me. I think most of you are at or quite near goal though but still I will trundle on doing my best and I can refer to this post to keep me positive.

Have a lovely day everyone, it looks cold out there but I'm off for a dog walk in an hour no matter what the weather decides.

Morning!

Love the long term goal @poorpaws, I think that takes the pressure off Christmas.

I've realised that I don't have a meeting tonight, it's next week. So I'm going to have a row on the machine and a zero snack day. Time to make a really good effort again.

Well, I did not have a row last night. I also did not stay off the snacks or alcohol. Instead, I sat on the sofa eating Christmas tree cracker crisps, with a tumbler of whisky and watched West Wing.

I also sent payment across to buy a new car and changed my insurance. I'm picking the car up on Thursday. Think once I had done that I'd had enough of doing responsible things so gave in to the lure of the telly and old boxsets.

I am excited to be getting a new car though. My current one is so close to breaking down completely. It's definitely time

Morning all! I'm now free from work for a whole week! Much needed, I have so many things I need/want to do but the primary goal is to make life easier - organising, sorting, clearing out and generally getting my shit together. Dog going to puppy club this morning for 5 days. I'm going to a quick bootcamp on the park, and I need to get some miles in as well at some point. I've got some decorating jobs to do as well, so loads to keep me busy.,

Food wise, I've not been brilliant but I am getting better at stopping myself. Like yesterday, I had a splitting headache and ended up eating chocolate while ds played football, that maxed out my calories, so I didn't then come home and eat dinner and eat loads in the evening. This week my plan is to eat proper meals, make nice soup, and eat tonnes of veg with everything and just generally stop this endless cycle of trying again every day. Just stick to something, anything, properly.

The only fly in the ointment is that we are out on Friday night, going to see frank skinner and having a few drinks and food.

Sounds like a great week ahead of you @thenewaveragebear1983! Enjoy it!

I'm still muddling through and not being very disciplined at all. Picking up my new car after work tonight 🥳DH is off on a works night out and DD is having tea at my mums so I don't know what I'll feed myself tonight. I might try and have a big lunch in town so that I can just have a sandwich or soup this evening.

Hi everyone

Sorry I've not been around but it's all a bit sad here (more later) but I have been trying. I've not been perfect but better than normal so I'm counting that as a win. If I lose just 1 lb a week I'll be happy, I am no longer looking for a quick fix that I can't maintain, so slow and steady and hopefully I can do some positive posting.

@Storyland great excitement about the new car, I hope you're delighted with it and you'll be queen of the road.

Sooo ... I've been crying for days. I don't know what I've posted about this but a very long story short.

Molly (13.1/2 yr old dog) growth on ear, two separate vets visits, can't operate cos heart murmur and can't take anaesthetic. Lump growing like hell, can't stay on, cant take off. Vet fobbing off, keeps saying come back in 2,4,6 months. Couple of weeks it's more than doubled in size so it's now BIG. On Monday going further afield to a vet who specialises in heart probs. So dog dies in operation or dies with cancerous growth and I have to choose which.

I'm only telling the above to explain why I don't feel like posing but I'm still trying.

Have a lovely Thursday (what's left of it) everyone.

Oh @poorpaws , I am sorry to hear about your little doggy, 🐾 such a difficult decision for you. Be kind to yourself

Thank you @thenewaveragebear1983, you're very kind. I am raw as hell. I can't stop crying and it's ridiculous because I should save the tears for when she actually goes.

I've been thinking long and hard today (I can't settle to anything and all my good work has stopped). The vet I'm seeing on Monday has a lot of experience and has a degree in dog cardiology so I'm going to listen to her and ask what she would do if Molly was her dog. The lump seems to grow as I look at it and I can't see how we can go on without chancing an operation.

It's so, so hard.

Morning all, happy Sunday

@poorpaws how is your dog doing? I've been thinking of her a lot. I hope she is comfortable.

I'm not doing brilliantly I'll be honest. I have had a really really productive few days off but I haven't been sticking to my food plans and have had wine and chocolate which pretty much bumps any calorie control off the plan anyway. We have busy weekends now until Christmas so I think damage limitation will need to be the order of the day for weekends, and try to 'bank' a few calories during the week to make my weekly average lower so I stand any change of losing 1lb or 2. There's still over 6 weeks to Xmas so could lose half a stone or so, but it's just so easy to overeat especially when you're tired, nights are drawing in, fire is on.... I have goals for next year (our first holiday abroad in 9 years!) so I really want to get myself sorted in the new year, but this time of year is just so hard isn't it?

Anyway, my plan today is to do my bathroom ceiling (spent hours yesterday mist coating the plaster but today need to do white ceiling and grey walls) and in between coats to do a few other jobs. The house is looking noticeably improved from a few days of my cracking through my list (I have done maybe 30 things off my to do list since weds! Amazing). Then ds and I are going to watch Paddington in Peru this afternoon. I'm going to try to do a run and I'd like to take 40 minutes to listen to my hypnosis as that really really helps me make better choices around good, especially sweet stuff.

Hope you are enjoying your new car @Storyland . @Theredjellybean how are you doing, would love to hear. Sorry about your ill dog @poorpaws , it sounds very upsetting.

All good here, maintaining a steady 9st. Recommending mushrooms to the gang, they are filling, nutritious and low calories. Also pheasants (if you are in the country and your butcher has lots going cheap like we have around here!) are a great lean meat.

Hello, official weigh in for me 9st10. 1lb up since last week and I'm pretty sure it's mainly made up of mash potatoes. Made a massive beef stew last night

New car is lovely. I'm slowly getting used to having a bigger car. Such a relief though to be rid of the old car that was frankly quite dangerous to drive by the end of it.

I'm struggling to be disciplined with exercise or food or drinking at the moment. Like @thenewaveragebear1983 , this time of year makes me just want to cosy up and hibernate. Plus life is busy so meal prep goes out of the window and I grab junk to keep going.

Maybe I should try my best to maintain over winter and then try to lose a few more lbs in the new year. Or I could quit making excuses and try properly again. If I lost 5lbs before Christmas then I would have lost 2 stone overall this year. That would feel like a nice round number to finish the year on.

@poorpaws so sorry about your dog. Hope the vet appointment tomorrow makes the way forward really clear.

Hi everyone

I haven't got much to say but I know I'll not have time to report in or even weigh-in tomorrow morning. DP will be here just after 8 am, I'm both dreading and looking forward to the vets visit. I hope this vet can make more sense to me than the previous two visits.

My eating has been awful, I keep eating rubbish food with far too much snacking, promising myself when this torture ends I'll really go for it. I can't settle to anything, I'm struggling to do basic housework never mind continuing with the clear out.

Thank you all for your kind words, I'll report back when I know more. Molly is comfortable and eating well but the lump has grown so much in the last 2/3 days. She keeps shaking her head as I assume the lump is getting heavy now. I've got to keep positive if I can and cross fingers all goes well.

Have a great Monday everyone and wish us all luck here.

Well annoyingly I didn't think I'd had too bad a weekend, I did go out on Friday but didn't go mad, and Saturday was just decorating and went for a run. Sunday again was ok, not necessarily gold star but certainly didn't go wild and actually ended up under calories yesterday. And.... today weighed in the heaviest I have been all year! 161.5lbs!!! Whaaaaaaytttttt????? So much so that I reason it must be water retention and hormonal bloat because that's a gain of about 4lbs. And is NOT fair.

I'm on annual leave today and tomorrow, going to finish painting my bathroom and put up a shelf and a coat hook. Will go for a run as it's beautiful crisp autumn day today, perfect running weather. I'm collecting my doggie this afternoon, oh I have missed her little beaky nose getting all up in my business the last few days.

@poorpaws I hope your appointment goes well today.

Quick update on my dog.

The vet kept her all day and we had to fetch her home late afternoon. She had blood and urine tests and an ultrasound. The news was not good, the heart has a lot wrong with it and it's enlarged. We were surprised at how bad it is given there are no signs without a stethoscope. She's been given heart tablets which have to be 12 hours apart (one given at the vets at 3 o'clock so I had to get up at 3 am to give her another). She needs the heart tablets in her system for a week before they dare operate on the ear.

The lump on the ear is growing really fast, so she's having the operation next Monday. I've chosen the same vet to do the operation as she is well aware that she's got to work very fast under the anaesthetic. We shall see what happens but she's got a chance.

I'm afraid it's not the time to watch my weight although I know I should. Two years ago I was at my highest weight and bought two pairs of jeans. I lost the first half stone really quickly (mostly because I was appalled at how big I was) so I never actually wore these jeans. I found them in the wardrobe yesterday morning, right at the bottom and out of sight. I wore one of the pairs yesterday and was so much more comfortable throughout the whole day. It's yet another wake up call, I've gone up a size in jeans to the highest I've ever been. This is still not the time though

My DP quipped that after Molly's operation I won't be able to afford food anyway. It's going to be extremely expensive and if she does make it, she'll need another ultrasound in six months and heart tablets for the rest of her life. (It's cost £1,300 so far and she hasn't had the operation yet 😱). I love her and I am happy to go without to keep her.

I'm being very positive at the moment, but we'll see what happens next week. Thank you for your kind thoughts and comments. I will get back to the diet when this week is over.

Have a happy Tuesday everyone.

@poorpaws will be hoping all goes well for next Monday. Lots of love to you. Our pets are very special.

Yesterday I did a quick walk on my lunch hour and managed to walk just over 2 miles. But then I had a massive fry up for tea. Not great but hoped the walk would then off set it. But then I visited an Iranian friend who insisted on feeding me two big helpings of salad. It was very nice but you could have rolled me out the door afterwards.

I'm afraid I'm not doing much better today. I've been left alone in the office so I raided the sweet cupboard. Need to learn not to treat boredom with food.

@poorpaws that at least sounds a little more promising than what you may have feared. Sending you all the wishes, I hope she is ok ❤️

I also completely ageee about the jeans. I was feeling so miserable last week, nothing fitted, my high waisted jeans all give me a massive sticky out belly and everything was tight and uncomfortable. So I went to sainsburys and bought a bigger size. I didn't want to, but at least now I actually have something I can wear that I don't feel horrible in. And actually, because they aren't tight and uncomfortable I actually feel slimmer in them anyway 🤷‍♀️

I have had a pretty good two days. Oddly it took my scary weigh in on Sunday to finally get me a kick up the bum and for 3 days now I have had under my calorie allowance. I've been starting the day with a big protein breakfast with lots of calories which is helping, then lunch I've had soup, and a normal dinner. It's really curbed my incessant grazing. I was so busy this week and I've tried to take it easy today but it's hard when there's builders in the house still and I'm really really not looking forward to working the rest of the week. I hope I can keep up my good food when I am back at my desk.

A bit of a tricky few days since returning to work although I have stuck to calories. I've written everything down. I had 6 roses chocolates this afternoon in a hormonal fury and then that meant I didn't have any calories left for dinner, so I had plain veg soup out of the freezer. Yes, that was as miserable as it sounds but hey, it's one meal, I'm not going to starve.

I did run club last night and today my hip did not hurt, which I think is around 3 months since I last had a pain free run, and i haven't had the tight pinching when getting up of walking downstairs. Maybe whatever was trapped has untapped itself. This is very promising as my marathon plans had been totally shelved and I've been looking sadly at my training plan watching weeks going by without doing any of the training and thinking I was never going to be able to do it.

I'm feeling very very tired. And quite hormonal. I'm looking forward to the weekend but I have lots to do and now the bathrooms are finally finished there's loads of diy and decorating to get them both finished. Adulting is just a relentless chore isn't it?!

@poorpaws how is your doggo? And how are you?

@thenewaveragebear1983 that's good news about your hip. Fingers crossed that something is now untrapped for ever 🤞

I'm doing very very badly food wise. Yesterday was my birthday and DD bought me loads and loads of chocolate, my favourite chocolates, which I'm going through at a rate I don't really want to disclose. 🤣
DP took me to our café today and I had a mega breakfast which was lovely but very large. We're going back again tomorrow to the café and having our regular Friday bacon butties and then I am going again on Sunday with my SIL for another mega breakfast. These are all birthday treats since I didn't really want any presents.

On the Doggo front, I'm a wreck quite honestly. She is doing brilliantly but the lump on her ear is so big now it's terrifying, and I swear it grows as I look at it. I've been sitting here tonight just worrying about Monday and if she doesn't come back and I just don't know what I'll do. I've had her for 13 1/2 years, she's the biggest part of my life. I just keep repeating over and over. I need her for at least 18 more months. Don't ask me why I need her for exactly 18 months. it's just a figure I've plucked out of thin air. Anyway, I'm worried sick, so sick you'd think I'd stop eating but actually I'm eating even more and I'm looking forward to but dreading Monday. I think I'm just about lost my mind at the moment.

@thenewaveragebear1983 so glad your hip is feeling better. You did right to rest it and ease back into exercising.

@poorpaws Monday is not far now. Hope your birthday plans will keep you distracted over the weekend so you have less time to dwell on the op.

I've been up and down the last few days. DD'S school has an inset day today so I'm taking her to Manchester Christmas markets. There are quite a few treats we want to try. Pistachio croissants, Yorkshire pudding wraps. Just hoping walking everywhere will balance it out a little