@palmplantcirca1980s well, I didn’t really manage my diagnosis very well, it sparked off a health anxiety I’d managed to keep buried for many years, so that was very difficult. I am extremely fortunate in that it has been caught very early, and I have a good prognosis, but the treatment has been extremely aggressive, with a view to preventing recurrence. I have had 24 weeks of chemo altogether, which has been very gruelling, and I still have surgery and radiotherapy to go, with potentially oral chemo too. I also caught covid 3 weeks ago, which meant my surgery was pushed back.
I’ve spent a great deal of time working on my mental health. I have completed lots of short courses (including mindfulness for cancer, cancer related fatigue, living with uncertainty) and I have also had counselling from Tenovus cancer care, which has been marvellous. I have also engaged with support services from Penny Brohn cancer support and Look Good, Feel Better. These have included sessions on improving resilience, exploring hypnotherapy regarding intrusive thoughts, Pilates classes, scalp care, make up classes…the list goes on and I’ve done a lot! I was very mindful that with being off sick, there was a danger of becoming isolated, so have literally forced myself to engage in these things.
Its been terribly hard, though. I make it sound like I’m bouncing though it while applying lipstick and meditating, and it hasn’t been like that at all. Some days have been very, very dark, full of tears and pain and I’ve been very ill with chemo side effects. I’ve found the impact of silly things like the way I look now very hard. I lost a stone and a half last summer, and thanks to the chemo, steroids, water retention and fatigue, have gained it all back. Hence me joining this thread.
Sorry to derail, everyone! I wasn’t very healthy at all yesterday, had a burger AND a hot dog, plus too many drinks with the neighbours last night 🙈 Going to make up for it today, hoping to get out for a long walk later and having a fairly healthy dinner of chicken and salad.
Hope everyone has a great day! 😊