BigMoFos Week 56

[JackieNo]

Fresh new week.

Hi Tigerfeet,

My commiserations. It's weird isn't it. You know that binging won't help long term, you don't want to do it and you know you'll beat yourself up about it later but its STILL impossible to stop.

I wish I could find a way to not binge when I'm really down, but at those points sweet stuffs seem to be the only thing that helps!

It's as if your brain is completely disconnected from your body - brain's saying 'Don't do it, you know it's a bad idea, you'll regret it later' and your body's just going ahead and buying and eating stuff regardless.

My new scales have arrived - these ones, and it they tally pretty identically with what my old, non-digital ones said, which is a relief (as I mentioned, my mum's ones said I was a stone and a half heavier). These are accurate to the nearest quarter of a pound - and strangely DH and I are exactly the same weight (at least we were, then he put his trousers on). Gave him a bit of a shock, so I suspect he may be keen to do some healthy eating too.

I've got a few starting weights, but there are a few names missing ... no names, no pack drill but you know who you are

If anyone else wants to email me their weight for a restart, or their weight loss for this week, I'm ready and waiting.

I have been avoiding the scales but did my restart weight this morning ... I weigh more than I did when we started all this. What a wasted year. I don't do self-flagelation (well, not in public, anyway ) but if anyone feels like applying boot to arse, I could do with a swift kicking. Even knowing what it's doing to my body I just haven't been able to stop myself eating crap and piling it on.

Sorry WWB,

Just sent it!

I'm having a c@*p day as our house buyer has just pulled out so now we're back to square one and I sooooo don't want to lose the house we've found!

I havn't lost any weight either, despite getting back into the gym routine this week and being really careful about portion sizes etc.

Oh well. Face forward, it can only get better (I hope!)

oh poo forgot again
am sending now

Cant remember if i sent my start weight or not.Will send again anyway.Get weighed tonight so wish me lotsa luck!!

Have weighed (on my new scales) and sent weight - as my start weight was on the old scales, I've left it up to WWB whether she thinks I should claim the half pound loss or just treat this week's weight as my new start weight (probably fairer that way, tbh). Good luck agalch, and sorry to hear about the house, Littlemisssensible. And WWB - please don't even do self-flagellation in private - you are where you are, and we all move on from there.

Yep, I am where I am. And I've been here for too bloody long. I want to shift it, I need to shift it, but I still can't stop myself shovelling the ruddy stuff in.

I am in pain now every time I walk, because my knees, my calves and my back hurt - and still I can't stop shovelling the stuff in.

I know that if I carry on like this I am killing myself - and STILL I can't stop shovelling the stuff in.

I now weigh bang on 22 stone; I am disgusted with myself that 12 months down the line I weigh more than I did when we started. I don't want to be this big, I don't want to be eating this much, I hate myself for every damned mouthful. But still I can't stop shovelling the stuff in.

I really do need someone to apply their size 7s to my backside and kick it long and hard.

It's an incredibly frustrating situation to be in. Does the fact that if you hadn't lost any weight last year, you'd be heavier than you are now help at all? I know - we all know all the intellectual stuff - it's not that side of it that we need help with.

And I also wanted to apologise WWB - I wanted to type more to you in that last post of mine, but I had to dash off to take DD to her swimming lesson, and she was in tears because she hadn't been for 2 weeks and was scared they'd have done 'new stuff' that she wouldn't know. I realised it might come across a bit brusque - many apologies.

No, no - it didn't sound brusque at all. You're dead right, there's nothing I can do apart from recognise where I am and then move away from there.

I know I would have been heavier if I hadn't lost the weight I did lose but I just get so frustrated and angry with myself for being so bloody useless at this. I know how to do it, and I what I'd be saying to motivate someone else who was feeling this way too. I want to do it, I need to do it, but something in my brain isn't letting me. I'm never going to shift it, I've spent half my life losing weight only for it to go back on bringing reinforcements with it.

OK ... I have several new starts this week so just a few losses to post. Should be lots more next week

Those restarting this week (so posting first loss next week)

JackieNo
TigerFeet
WWB

Anyone else (KC, coppertop?) let me have a start weight any time you feel ready to.

Agalch +1lb (total 32.5lb)
LMS stayed the same (total 4.5lb)
MrsJC -3lb (total 7lb)
EllieG -1lb (total 3.5lb)

Whoops - I had a total loss from you but not this week's loss so can't post it ... but total loss is 31lb.

So by my reckoning, MrsJC gets the crown, and the rest of us have some work to do

By the way, if anyone's looking at this thinking "what a load of cobblers, my total loss is waaaaay more than that" do let me know; I'm piecing this all back together a bit, so may have got my wires crossed.

New thread, new start