I WILL to do this

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I am desperate to lose weight. I feel SO unhappy and I am sick of the enduring guilt after the most recent bout of self sabotage.

I want to lose around 3 stone and feel good about myself again, which I haven't done in years. I am 32 and sick of missing the old me. I do not carry extra weight well AT ALL- no shapely curves for me. I have had two c-sections, a twin pregnancy, depression (which has really impacted on my eating) and I've just had enough.

If anyone is in a similar situation or has been I would love to have some company. If not I shall be using this thread to waffle on to myself

Current plan: start using my fitness pal again from tomorrow (I have had some success with this previously) and do some exercise tomorrow.

That's about all I have so far.

Oh and my username is an attempt at positivisty

Ellie I tend to change each day, so on a very sedentary day or after a heavy eating day I'll aim for 1200. If I have a run of days when I can make the sensible dietary and activity choices I want to I'll go for 1400.

Yesterday's losses:
I used a day's shopping as a reason to "treat" myself with too much food.
Yesterday's wins:
I walked in to town rather than taking the bus and, inspired by this thread I didn't let a bad afternoon turn in to a bad evening.

Today's wins:
Despite being on a course all day, I got the gym and lifted and went on the treadmill to get my 10K steps in. I also went to the shops for some healthy food for the next couple of days.
Today's losses:
After yesterday it looks like I'm having a bag of mange tout for tea rather than Saturday night pizza and chips.
Rock. And. Roll.

Rock and roll indeed

Sorry late checking in, have a house full of illness!

Red your wins are fantastic. You could have so easily justified not going to the gym after your course- I most probably would have in all honesty. I need some of your motivation!

I have done very badly today after what was agood couple of days (for me). I have come over my calorie allowance with a vegetable pizza and haven't had chance to do anything except comfort a poorly baby. I was really hoping to do an exercise DVD but it has just been awful with 3 ill children.

Tomorrow I am aiming to be as active as I can and be below/on my calories. My newish scales have also stopped working so I need to buy a new battery for that, or but new scales. Will also aim to drink a lot more water. I actually have a cross trainer but have never got on very well with it- I might try that again.

Sorry not very constructive really, so stressed! Hopefully tomorrow a better day.

Sounds as though yesterday was a trial. I think it's a win if you don't completely fall off the wagon!

You are all brilliant! Much inspiration. I should come here more instead of inhaling Christmas buffets

Can I join?

I'm on MFP but can't be doing with the community, I read the success stories but the support groups are far too cheery and involve so much weight lifting I start to feel inadequate

My initial goal is to lose about 16 pounds and then see how I feel and look to consider another stone. The initial goal takes me into healthy BMI territory and was what I weighed about 6 years ago.

I have 2 DC which knocked my weight out of whack and health issues (thyroid) made it trickier to lose as it was unstable for a long while. However, finally seem to have cracked that.

After DC2 I committed and lost about 22 pounds, which I have kept off and very happy about. However got a new job 1.5 years ago (so not so new now!), great but very full on, and haven't managed to commit since then. Good thing is I have maintained, but I am still overweight and feel a bit too heavy still. My weakness is emotional eating / stress eating, or getting takeaway out of tiredness and laziness to cook

I am setting myself slow goals as I am nearer to target than when I had the initial loss, so about 0.5-1 pound a week, and we'll see how we go. MFP has suggested 1280 cals per day (pah! Not likely...) but hoping to get a new Fitbit as that helped a lot last time but previous one is slowly giving up and very unreliable!

Alongside this just trying to take care of myself better to avoid the emotional eating, like relaxing more, taking time to do my hair, skincare routine, that sort of thing - hoping a holistic approach will be more sustainable!

Hi Before, of course you can join Well done you for losing that weight!
I am absolutely the same with takeaways- for into a terrible habit with them whilst working in a stressful job, then with having newborn twins! I've also always been an emotional eater but could get away with it when younger and very slim. Looking back, I was more active (I walked an awful lot whilst at university, for example) and whilst my diet wasn't particularly healthy, I had days where I would definitely eat less (not a conscious decision, just the way it was with cooking/being busy etc).

I'm vegetarian and have always been carb heavy, which most probably doesn't help either.

Completely agree with taking better care of yourself in general- it struck me recently that I really don't have proper skincare routine and fail to take vitamins and iron tablets which I do actually need. I'm just not looking after myself like I used to.

I've just been looking at vitamins today Losing!

There's so much to juggle that time to look after oneself goes by the wayside. I have caring commitments for DH and the DCs too due to disabilities which adds to things, and I manage to keep it all going but I do that by cutting out pretty much anything just for me. I have a lot of nice people around me who remind me that I need to take care of myself too but it's taking time for that message to sink in... necessary though, as my own health needs better caring for.

I have logged my first day, not 1280 as expected (that's a silly goal...) but was 1500 which was far better than I expected as we had lots of rich food in the house - roast dinner, cheese etc. I won't be adding any exercise into my diary until I get a new Fitbit but just getting back into the habit of logging and thinking about what I eat is good, and I made more of a conscious effort not to reach for sweet things after dinner as a result so all good.

Yesterday's win was coming in at 1200 calories, again nearly all healthy choices.

Loss was not hitting 10lk steps due to being on a course and sitting on a train.

Active day today so looking forward to more calories.

Sounds good Red

1564 calories today, again cooked a rich meal (I'm good at that ) but happy with that too as the 1500 mark is alright for me in terms of being more sensible, and the main thing is I haven't been snacking and was fine / not peckish. Really would like a new Fitbit though so I can count my steps!

Very achey today and had a moment of thinking of chocolate but moved on from that and had fruit which is definitely a better choice and made me feel better

Yesterday's wins: Over 15k steps due to cardio.
Yesterday's losses: Mindless eating of stollen after unexpected root canal so went over my calories, must have been about 1800.

Sounds like you have this before! Good choice with the fruit. Think of the vitamins getting to work right now.

I have a tricky day today with both dinner and teatime eating out. Luckily the scales showed a pound lost since yesterday. Although I know I've not lost a pound of fat I do find it very motivating. I only have 1.6lb to hit the next stone mark.

How's the tooth today red?
I have put all Christmas treats away. I'm feeling good about today. Been drinking a lot of water and it's beginning to work instead of snack.

I'm feeling sore and a bit, er, down in the mouth.

Good reminder about the water stellar.

Red Oh dear root canal Hope you're feeling better. I think 1800 is okay, still in the realms of an average daily intake so not likely to derail in any way (plus it would have been taaasty...)

Doing well today, slightly lower than other days on cals at 1400 and no desire to snack. I find that snacking begets snacking, crisps beget crisps, chocolate begets a TON of chocolate... but I've been quite happy with my tea and fruit.

Walking more, no official step count but will be in the region of 8000-12000 based on what I used to get when I had my Flex.

Glad I joined this little group, keeps it in my mind!

I agree, the thread helps me to be accountable to myself. Yesterday's wins were that I made it to the gym and hit 15K steps. I didn't end up eating out at dinner but teatime was pizza and garlic bread. Saying that, I did leave about a quarter of my pizza so didn't stuff myself silly.
I haven't stepped on the scales yet.

Today needs to be a low calorie day and I've just realised it's looking pretty sedentary so I'll try to head out at dinnertime for a walk in the sunshine.

Hope everyone is having a good weekend!

Today's win is saying NO to a late takeaway. Even though I really want one.

I still need to kickstart the exercise but finding it hard with kids and illness etc. Husband off work now so hoping to fit it in now.

So tired, off to bed so I don't change my mind about the takeaway!

Good day yesterday, less successful today I'm afraid. Still, got to the gym and clocked up 14k steps so could have been worse.

Great takeaway win OP!

Erm, pretty bad day for me yesterday... not utterly horrendous but I had a salad wrap for dinner- with fried chips. No idea how many calories was in that!

On a plus note I was pretty active and planning a long forest walk today.

Well done on the gym and steps red. Do you tend to eat back your 'gained calories' from exercise?

Opened a tub of celebrations last night.
Today is a new day.

Not had the greatest two days, but in other ways it's been good. Both have info,vex a more indulgent meal, one was a bit of a celebration (I'm changing job), one wasn't as indulgent as that but more than my usual. However the other meals I have had during those same days have been very light, e.g. salad. Had some chocolate yesterday but as a positive didn't just sit there mindlessly eating loads and stopped after a couple (well 3...).

As my name sort of suggests I have a goal before I turn 30, but that's a little over 2 years from now. My first goal is my birthday in a couple of months. I'm approaching this as a long term thing as I realise that being closer to goal, it will take longer unless I was particularly strict with calories or much more active, neither of which I can guarantee at the moment. So, I feel good still as my behaviours are improving. Far less snacking, logging every day, and becoming more conscious again of what food I buy and how I cook it.

Long winded way of saying it's all good

Red You are inspiring me to be more active and I've been trying to walk more as a result.

Stellar That's it, new day, I'm with you!

Losing Some people wouldn't agree but if I have things like that, I go for a generic large number, like 1500 calories, just to log something and demonstrate it would be high, even if I'm not 100% sure of what it actually is.

Ahem, involved, not info vex...

I tend to eat more for the purpose of my activity. So on a weight-lifting day I will eat some extra carbs before I go and extra protein when I get home. If I go on a long walk I'll tuck in to a carb fest. If I'm having a sedentary day I try to eat much less.

I too put a big number in when I've been out for a meal but nothing accurate ridiculous.

Ok, I've realised something this morning, reading the posts above and thinking about today and yesterday. I think I'm going to give myself a bit of a diet break from now until next week. My goal will be to continue hitting 10k steps a day; the gym three times a week; and, two long walks before I go back to work on the 3rd. I'm going to enjoy food indulgence.

Good for you Red.

Makes me feel a bit better about planned indulgences.

I'll keep up the 10K and the water.

Yes enjoy it Red! Best thing to do.

I've decided to come back day after boxing day and just let whatever happens the next couple of days go, so I won't feel too guilty. If you don't see me on here then please give me a virtual kick up the bum!

I hope you all have a lovely Christmas

Have a great time all. We will be travelling in a couple of days. Will try and avoid the force feeding.

Have a lovely time everyone.

Hope you're all well!

I've decided to go all in for getting back to normal / healthy (not in an OTT unsustainable sense!).

I have a health condition which is managed quite simply with medication, however for myself this only helps in part and I still get quite a few symptoms, just not as bad as without meds (tiredness, joint issues, skin issues among others). A while back my GP spent some time with me creating a diet and seeing how I react to things (this is an area of specialism for him, not just randomly having a go!) and he gave me a diet and a few vitamin supplements. However since I have been in my current job I have pretty much forgotten it and feeling rough.

So, I am reinstating it. I feel excited because it should mean that I feel much better, as I did before, but does mean a couple of big changes. Biggest is significantly dropping my black tea and coffee intake, which I do have quite a bit of (usually 2 coffees and 2-3 black teas a day). This should also help generally with eating more healthily and contributing to my weight loss efforts, which is also great.

I also bought a new Fitbit Hasn't arrived yet but silly excited for it. Like, very unreasonably so.