Morning all!
Well done Dotty! Keep it up, you're doing so well.
I know it was ages ago, and you've probably forgotten, but there was a conversation about being an "ex binger", or "ex anorexic". I just wanted to say that as some of you know, my mum has been anorexic/bulimic/compulsive eater since I was 7 years old (I'm now 38). A few years ago, I asked her whether she considered herself a "recovered anorexic". She said that anorexia was a means of coping with the situation around her. Like a broken ankle which has now healed, there is still a weakness there but she feels that if the same set of circumstances occurred, she would now had a different set of strategies to deal with it. However, the weakness is always there, and she is always aware of it.
I found this really interesting as for me, it really put eating disorders in the same sort of bracket as any other addition like alcoholism. Eating is my way of dealing with outside (and inside) pressures. I need to learn other coping strategies before I can let go of my main crutch.
My mum's eating is mostly under control now. She's definitely not anorexic. I think she has occasional bulimic episodes, but she's put on weight recently which may mean she's in a binge eating phase. It is so depressing to think that she's been like this for 31 years. I don't think I can bear to think of the rest of my life stretching forward like that. All the more reason to continue with my counselling and get this thing beaten!!!!