Happy New year everyone.
Can anyone join in on this thread?
I've just recently realised that I no longer qualify as curvy, endearingly cuddly or even just a wee bit plump or any of the other comforting bullshit I've been feeding myself along with the chocs.
I'm actually just fat.
I'm fairly tall and carry it well, I still have a clearly defined figure and waistline, and the excess weight has gone on pretty evenly all over - which has helped me deny my fatness. But I really am just a fatty. It is quite mortifying to have to accept.
I have recently seen a deeply unflattering picture of me tagged on facebook. I had no idea I looked like that from the back
I hastened to de-tag and disown my bulgy blubbery rear-view, but the image has stuck with me and initiated my fat-crisis.
It prompted me to get on the scales for the first time in years in a while, and I realised just how much weight I have gained. I am now a pretty whopping 220lb 
It is only eight years ago that I weighed 110lb - okay, I was probably a wee bit underweight back then, but still - I have doubled my body weight in less than a decade and that is just not cool.
Over Christmas, it was discussed with my lovely in-laws that we would take a family holiday this summer in July. At a lake, where there are lots of lovely spots to sunbathe and water-ski, and swim...
Well crap. I don't think my flattering jeans and floaty tops will carry me through that. Oh no, I think swimsuits and shorts and horrid stuff like that might be in order... or I will look very odd indeed 
So uh, getting 'beach' ready by early July? That isn't impossible is it? I don't have ridiculous expectations of somehow returning to 110lb and stepping out suddenly looking like Gisele. It would just be nice to not feel like the Michelin man in a swimsuit. Especially as 3 out of my 4 SIL are very much on the attractive, healthy size 10/12 side of things, and the remaining one who is just a little bit smaller than me has got the 'excuse' of having 4 kids and being 12 years older than me :(
I was thinking of aiming to lose 45-50lb by early July, which I think sounds pretty achievable, and although that won't take me down to my ideal weight, I think it would get me to a point where I won't feel so bad.
I have never really dieted before, as the excess weight has really just sneaked up on me slowly and been ignored until now so I am not really sure what I am doing to lose it yet. But I'm here to commit to doing something this year to curtail my expansion before it goes beyond not liking the way I look and gets into serious health issues... and hopefully to find some people willing to deliver a hearty kick to my over sized posterior whenever I try to weasel off on a wine and cheese binge.
Good luck everyone.