What is wrong with me?

[Rillyrillygoodlooking]

After dinner I ate a packet of glacé cherries and a large amount of icecream. Then db came back with a crunchier, which I ate. I could have eaten a lot more.
I know that I am putting on even more weight, I panic and eat more. I feel angry at the thought of not being able to eat.
Dh keeps telling me off about the amount I eat. I know how to eat right but I don't.
I need to rewire my brain. I just want to eat all the time.

I meant Dh came back, not db

I know what you mean, I'm the same . Not sure how to change either. Wonder if anyone knows how we can reprogram ourselves.

Dh says just don't put the food in your mouth but it's like I don't have control over my own body and I eat anyway.
I want to have a tantrum at the thought of going on a diet, I feel so cross about it.
Do you think you can be addicted to food? I sound like I need a fix.

I am exactly the same i used to be a gillian mckeith disciple and was a stone and a half lighter than i am now im looking forward to hear any fresh inspiration-dont feel like you're the only one

Another one over here- just realised I've put on all the weight I lost earlier this year. And exercise makes me want to punch people!

feel your pain. I have been dieting this last two weeks and lost around five pounds. Made the mistake of staying up too late tonight and have just accidently eaten 3 packets of crisps and a slice of chocolate cake

Staying up late never helps does it? Too long between dinner and going to bed.
I had to pop to the shop and Dh told me to take dd with me. Was pissed off coz I wanted to do sneaky eating

It gets to be such a habit too, doesn't it?

The thing that helps for me (and it's still a battle, believe me!) is to only eat properly, i.e. sitting at a table with an actual plate. Not in front of Downton Abbey, not at the kitchen counter, not standing in front of the refrigerator. Just sitting down and eating properly.

I had a terrible day yesterday. A whole packet of biscuits in 20 mins.
I would say that the control thing is a part of it, but it's more of an FU to DH and an FU to myself because I just resolutely keep scoffing when rationally I really don't want to.
I can't really blame DH though as I have been like it for years. It's just got worse in the last few.
I always eat some of the food on my plate before I get to the table, I will try to sit at the table and really look at what I am eating.

I can absolutely relate to what you are saying. I know that I shouldn't eat it but I do anyway. Why can't I have just a little bit of chocolate? Why do I keep going back to the biscuit tin? Why aren't I like other people?

A couple of weeks ago, I had to see my GP about losing weight and he told me that I could be addicted to sugary food. Actually addicted, not just that I like it or have no self control.

This is probably the most useful thing that anyone has ever said to me regarding weight loss.

So I just stopped eating sweets, chocolate, cakes, biscuits and sugary drinks. I feel like I did when I gave up smoking. I can't have it - I'm addicted.

Weirdly, I felt odd for a couple of days, now I don't even want it. How strange is that? It's like being told I was addicted activated another part of my brain.

I don't know if that will help you but I wanted to share this.

Someone once told me that sugar was more addictive than heroin. Have no idea if that is true or not but I just thought I'd share.

But I definately believe it is addictive, I'm ok if I have none of something, chocolate, bread, whatever it may be, but if I have some then I want lots.

But then again I'm the same with alcohol, its never just one glass, I have to finish the bottle.

but if it addictive, more so than heroin, why can so many people stop at 1 or 2 biscuits?

I think anyone who takes heroin gets addicted.

But why with sugar, if it is so addictive, does it only affect some people?

Yes, Chandon, I agree. It seems that sugar/processed carbs may be more addictive to some people than others. Maybe like alcohol?

I don't know if I am addicted to sugar, but thinking that I am has helped me to stay away from sugary foods.

I used to be exactly like that . I was so addicted to sugar and would eat a box of chocolates every single night. Healthy all day then pig out in evening. Now I have completely banned anything sweet including things like biscuits and ice-cream which I don't really like but would eat if I only banned myself from chocs. I basically went cold turkey at Easter. Living hell for two weeks, a bit less hell for next 10 or so weeks. Then got easier after 3 months. 50 pounds lost so worth it . Good luck if you do try and ditch the junk. Also my DH also used to buy me the chocolate but at the same time not like me fat.

Yes, I have stopped eating sugar in the past and it has helped. And then I think, I'll just have two squares of choc, or two biscuits and it all spirals out of control.
When you have given up eating sugar, do you stop eating fruit as well?

fluffy123 my DH is the similar. He will talk to me about "my eating" and then buy treats in the evening because he wants to eat it as well. So frustrating. Although I have had complete tantrums in the past when I told him not to buy treats and then when he didn't I really really wanted choc. He can't win!

Rilly I stopped eating fruit as well as everything else sweet . I just had to get all the sugar out of my body. I also gave up crisps as well because in the past if I stopped having the chocolate I would turn to pringles instead. Baisically I went cold turkey at Easter and haven't touched any chocolate, sweets, crisips, cakes, biscuits, ice-cream since. It was only really bad for a couple of weeks , sometimes I just went to bed early to stop myself eating anything.

You need to keep all junk out of the house and tell DH not to eat junk in front of you. I totally feel your pain though. I did low carb for @9 months this year lost 1.5 stone. Now I can not eat carbs sensibly at all...can't have 1 sweet needs to be a packet etc. Going to start up low carbing again though, still got 1 stone to go. I'm going to try to lose 1.5 so I can put a wee but back on again.

I do wonder if giving up sugar is a bit like alcohol, ie, once you quit you can't go back. Anyone seen any research on this?

Could you link to it please. I have a horrible feeling this may apply to me as the thought of giving up carbs seems ghastly

After the first three months I ditched about 90% of the carbs I used to eat. This speeded up my weight loss from 1lb per week to apron 2.5 lb and drastically reduced my appetite. I couldn't have done it straight away as would have been to much if a shock to the system and I would have packed it in.

www.carbfree.wordpress.com this is all about sugar highs and lows, once you sort your sugar out - you wont crave food and eat and eat.

i am a binger, and people who dont eat like this , dont understand it as an actual problem.

i could eat and not stop eating in a disgusting gluttonous way, then get depressed at how i eat, somehow convince myself that 'my face is still pretty though' even though i am busting out of my clothes and have back boobs, side boobs and and split in the middle when doing up my jeans.

every day was aweful, i loved winterm where i could don fashionalbe skirts ans a nice coat and scarf, and look great - big but great. i was a trendy fatty. I would pull my face back in he mirror to try to see the 'thin' me. i would look at a dress that hasn't fit me for 10 years in the cupboard. but it was expensive so i wont get rid of it.

i hated myself but thought i didn't. I wouldn't eat in public beucase people would look at me and judge. i could see it in their eyes - it wasn't paranoia - they were genuinely thinking ' why is that fat fuck eating chips' so i didn't eat in public very often - certainly not at work.

then i convinced myself i wasn't eating very much - i didn't eat breakfast, i didn't eat dinner - christ theres only so many hours in a day - how could i be so fat?

then i convinced myself that a size 16 was nr a 14 and a 14 isn't fat so a 16 isn't fat - but actually i was a size 18/20 - but i convinced myself i looked 'average'

i didn't keep pictures of myself unless i got a rare shot which i looked 'normal' i don't have very many holiday photos with me in. i ripped them up.

i would read threads on being happy and fat - and i would agree with them ' fuck it' i thought ' i'm happy - i am truly happy - i really am'

i really wasn't - it wasn't even like i knew i wasn't - it was just i didn't think i ws unhappy.

but i wouldn't eat in front of people
i wouldn't try on clothes
i would only shop in one shop

so losing weiight was a revelation. i got to a point where i just wanted to make an effort that lasted every minute of every day for a year.

when i got there i made it another year and then a lifestyle choice.

oh and mirrors

my house lacked mirrors. i had one 'face' mirror - no full length mirrors