What is wrong with me?

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After dinner I ate a packet of glacé cherries and a large amount of icecream. Then db came back with a crunchier, which I ate. I could have eaten a lot more.
I know that I am putting on even more weight, I panic and eat more. I feel angry at the thought of not being able to eat.
Dh keeps telling me off about the amount I eat. I know how to eat right but I don't.
I need to rewire my brain. I just want to eat all the time.

Great post Custardo, how much weight have you lost?

i lost 4 stone

Thanks for sharing your stories with me. I will pop over to the low carb thread see what its like. It sounds like it might be a good way to lose weight for me. Do most people on that thread follow the Atkins diet, or just cutting down on the obvious carbs, ie bread, pasta, potatoes etc?
I am overwhelmingly tired in the afternoons, l constantly graze and it isn't good for my children to see this.
DH came home from two days away and asked how my eating had been. I said not good so we had another "chat" about it, even though its all be said before. He said that I can make all the excuses under the sun, eg, I am fed up, I can't stop myself, I am on autopilot, blah blah blah, but when it comes down to it I just want to eat the nice stuff. I think there is more to it than that, but I couldn't explain it to DH as it really just sounds like excuses.
I can just about do it at the weekends because DH is at home, so can see what I am eating. But he is going away for a week, and I have come to think of him going away as an excuse to completely binge. He has been away for 3 hours so far and I have managed not to make a cake on the pretext that it is for the kids and then eat most of it. I have however had some chocolate milk and a chocolate ice lolly. I ate the ice lolly covertly so the kids didn't see. i have managed to stop myself eating any more but I am struggling.

(Another low carber here). This may be way off but are you eating because you are hungry? Lots of people say that eat because they were bored, or tired, but looking back I was actually hungry, all the time, even after large meals I could still eat so would always end up hitting the snack food. Watching my portion sizes made it worse because then regularly I'd go off the rails and usually on food that was more damaging to fill up on.

I would also eat covertly (and cake/ chocolate etc are great foods for doing this as you can nosh them quickly and easily hide the evidence) and like you, plan to eat when others were away so I wouldn't be monitored. I couldn't understand how everyone else could just stop at regular healthy meals - I needed this stuff and it was delicious.

What I found worked for me was the amount of protein you have on the low carb diets - I did the dukan which restricts you to protein only for the few days at the start but you can have unlimited amounts.

And I did. I gorged. I tested the concept of "unlimited" to it's limits. For about 4 days solid. And it felt great because for the first time in ages I was allowed to eat almost non-stop. I felt full. On the fifth day I noticed I hadn't eaten as much, this happened again on the next day. about once every 10 days I'd get "the hunger" again and pig out on just protein. The weight loss was wonderful but not having to hide my eating was what sold the diet to me and kept me on it.

I've lost the weight I needed to but what has really made the difference is that I am now no longer hungry so nothing drives me to the snacks. I still eat (and enjoy!) all the bad foods I did before but I think first "am I hungry?" and if so I have protein to completely fill up on first (leads to some odd combinations - we'll have leftover tiramisu in the fridge from having people for dinner the night before and I'll end up eating 2 boiled eggs, a salmon fillet, a pot of no-fat greek yogurt and a packet of Crabsticks first to kill the hunger that would otherwise make me eat the whole thing and follow it with biscuits, chocolate etc.)

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