Starting today... 2st to lose.

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Whilst shopping with my super slim friend over the weekend I realised just how fat I feel - and getting on the scales provided proof. I've put on 2 stone - 1 stone of which has come on very recently ( think a month or two?!).
Other than looking lumpy and increasingly featureless, my legs are achy and I don't feel like I've woken up properly ever.
So, I'm going to start on the diet today. The plan is to eat lots of veg and fruits, lean meats, and limited carbs. I'm going to have 3 decent sized meals a day, and not snack unless I'm truely hungry.

I'm going to weigh myself and post on here every Tuesday. Anyone who wants to join in please do!

Starting weight; 11st 13.
(Target weight 10st so 1st 13lbs to lose)

Cross posts Lamb.

Jillian Michaels reckons the two things that affect weight the worst are lack of sleep and stress, so it would seem that parents of children with SNs are often dealt a double blow in the weightloss stakes.

I know I feel about a hundred years older today than I did last week from a combination of insomnia and the stress of ds1 going back to school. Am sure its no coincidence that my weight has completely stalled this week as well.

I'm utterly pooped this evening. Dh is supposed to be home early and I was hoping he'd cook, but no sign of him so far.

Fortunately, ds1 had a better day today, so the atmosphere in the house is a million times better than last night.

I've had a terrible go at ds2. He was doing his usual thing of refusing to go to bed, refusing to have his teeth cleaned, telling me he hated me, that he would kill me etc etc and I lost my temper

Have just had some dry sherry and chorizo to make myself feel better. So there we are, just proved my point. I am sabotaging myself.

I am with you Lambskin. I posted too soon and ds1 has had the most enormous meltdown - one of his finest I do believe. He's just told dh that he thinks we don't love him because we obviously don't want him here. There we go with that lovely black and white thinking - if we are nice to him and let him have his own way all the time, then we love him - if we tell him off, even if he's done something really naughty and deliberately so, we obviously don't love him or want him here at all. Aaaargh!

I'm sitting here desperate for chocolate and trying desperately to not remind myself that dd's potty training chocolate buttons are in the fridge door!

You're not sabotaging yourself - you're just having a bad night and will be back on track tomorrow.

Oh thank you
That is just what ds is like. It is such a relief to find out we're not the only ones - it can feel like it in rl. Security and love are all a child really needs to thrive but what do you do when your child doesn't recognise that that is what they have?

Don't go near the chocolate buttons! Clean your teeth and put your pyjamas on, it works for me anyway!

Driving to my mum's tomorrow where there are no scales, no alcohol and no comprehension of low carbing. Bit mixed then.

I haven't touched them!

I hear you - sometimes I feel like loving ds1 is like trying to fill up a black hole - doesn't matter what I do or say, it never fills it up. I do think he does know how much he's loved though and in his happier, more settled moments he has confirmed this to me, so take heart your ds does know on some level what a lovely Mum you are and how much he's loved and cared for.

Coff33 over on SN has had an awful night with her ds as well - he's trashed the whole house and even kicked his beloved puppy - so it seems there's something in the air.

Tomorrow is a new day, here's hoping its a better one.

Enjoy your time at your Mum's and don't worry about weight or diets or fitness or anything - allow yourself some time to just be.

Well so much for a better day - my TOM arrived three days early this morning and I feel like poo.

Spent the whole morning hunkered down in the living room with dd feeling sorry for myself, but decided to try doing my workout when she went down for her nap. Glad I did now as its helped my cramps and given me the kick I needed to stop moping around.

Then - on the school run - one of the other mums stopped, commented on my weightloss and asked how I achieved such a lot in such a short space of time over the summer. Bless her, she made my day! She is the only person who has noticed and its no coincidence that she's also the only person at the school who knew I was trying to lose weight - but still its given me a bit of a boost at a time when I was starting to lose heart a little, despite knowing I've lost inches because those flipping scales are still refusing to budge. I'm trying to ignore them, but its not easy when you're used to judging yourself by what the scales tell you.

i think it's just that time of the year, moose. all new routines and stress until everything settles.

how lovely that you got a compliment though!

i've spent the entire day demonstrating how technically incompetent i am to an entire voluntary committee but logging onto my brand new committee e-mail account and then somehow flipping it over to my husband's personal e-mail and e-mailing everyone as him. without noticing. and then wondering why the mail wasn't appearing in my committee sent box. so e-mailing everyone again to test the e-mail was working. still nada. until the penny dropped and i found all my outgoing mail in my husband's sent items.

i am mortified. i am having two slices of raisin toast and large cup of very milky tea whilst i wait for everyone to respond.... eejit.

Oh dear - just blame the computer - or even better your husband!

dh called me from work.

apparently, his outlook on this computer is directly linked in to his other personal e-mail account, which is in turn linked to his work account.

i have apparently been e-mailing everyone from his other account fed through the outlook. so everyone i e-mailed (wittering on about feck i don't if this is working, can you let me know type test e-mails) has been replying to him at work to tell him that they were indeed getting the e-mails.

but of course, i wasn't. he was. so his inbox and junk mail are now becluttered with all the replies, as well as me junking up his outbox with my blah.

ha.

fortunately, he thinks it's quite funny. even though one of the e-mail addresses has now crashed in all the excitement and technical bolleaux.

Oops! Hope you are over all your technical malfunctions this morning.

So, weigh-in day is here again. Have been up and down all night with the TOM from hell. Honestly, its as bad as it used to be when I was in my teens, really painful, shakes, itching skin, temperature and fainting on the toilet. Thought I'd left all this behind 20 years ago.

Am slightly better this morning, so fingers crossed I'll be better by the weekend.

Right here's me:

Starting weight 16/6: 14st 2lb
Weight 24/6: 13st 8lb
Weight 1/7: 13st 7lbs
Weight 2/7: 13st 5lbs
Weight 13/7: 13st 4lbs
Weight 14/7: 13st 1lb
Weight 21/7: 12st 13lbs
Weight 29/7: 12st 11lbs (and 6oz)
Weight 16/8: 12st 9lbs (weighed in Tues not Fri due to holidays)
Weight 19/8: 12st 8lbs
Weight 20/8: 12 st 7lbs
Weight 26/8: 12st 8lbs 4oz
Weight 2/9: 12st 6lbs
Weight 9/9: 12st 5lbs

So only 1lb lost, rather than the very optimistic 2 I'd put as my goal, but knowing my TOM I will probably drop another pound or so over the next few days, so I'm happy enough. Even if I don't lose any more, at least its heading in the right direction.

Next week's goal: 12st 4lb - have decided to go for a 1lb loss and hopefully succeed, rather than set myself up to fail.

omg, i forgot it was friday! will have toweigh tomorrow as just drunk a gallon of tea and had bfast, and usually weigh first thing when i get up... oops.

well done on your 1lb - still going in the right direction! and a lb a week is a good goal for long term loss! you are def succeeding already, can't dress it up as a fail however you look at it.

technical issues all fixed. and dh removed all his accounts from my outlook app last night result! am off seeking donations for a fundraising event today, so that will stop me breaking anything else!

Morning

We've been away camping with friends this weekend. Took myself a big mixed salad and some weighed nuts along for Saturday and got up early to shred before we left. Had a BBQ on Saturday evening, but just ate a veggie burger in wholemeal roll. Everyone else was eating muffins, crisps etc but I was really good and didn't indulge.

Sunday was harder - porridge in the morning was ok, but then the dcs were desperate to get to their favourite ice-cream parlour for lunch. Nothing remotely healthy on the menu and the food is lovely. In the end I decided on a mozzarella and pesto pannini, but although it was lovely, it made me feel really ill. I think I'm just not used to eating high fat food anymore.

Stopped on the way back for a quick picnic and everyone else had cheese sandwiches, crisps and a cake, but I couldn't face eating so just had a handful of nuts and some water.

I was still hoping to do my workout when I got back, as I would've been on day 10 of level 2, but what with all the usual Sunday evening stuff that has to be done and unpacking the camper it was way too late and I was shattered.

Ended up having a bowl of natural yoghurt and berries at 10.30 pm.

Stressful morning here as well, ds1's best friend has gone off to Wales for three days to play in the orchestra and as he's the only real reason why ds ever wants to go to school, it was a real struggle getting him in. Not helped by the fact that he reported a problem in the playground on Friday afternoon - the Head got involved and half the boys in his year fell out with him, so he was scared of going back today. Fortunately, two boys from his class came straight up and started chatting with him when we arrived and I managed to give his teacher a heads up about his state of mind, so fingers crossed its going ok now he's there.

Lord, is it only Monday - it feels like I've done a week already!

Right, bit of a manic week or so here, friendships ending, new experiences, all that fun stuff. Doing OK on the diet front, still snacking when out though, but now have an idea of snacks I like that are healthy so that should be sorted.

Also going to the cinema tomorrow, with the guy I like. If we're going alone, is it still going as friends or are we in date territory now? I'm rubbish at relationships, last (and only) one was 6 weeks with a guy who really was not a nice person, and it was well over 3 years ago!

Hello, back home thank god. Very stressful few days (ds2 and my mum) have meant I now weigh 10 st 3lbs and 4 oz, which sounds ok (4lbs down on last weigh-in) but I know from experience it's too much too quickly to be real weight loss. So I'll weigh again on Friday and see where we are properly.

Lollipop - I'd be friendly and a bit flirty but with the friendly uppermost until you see how it goes. Ooh exciting good luck! Feel all old and wistful now

Madwoman - I live in fear of doing that sort of thing, and convince myself daily that I've just told the wrong person some bitchy gossip < not that either bitch or gossip you understand > Anyway, glad it's sorted and that you enjoyed your raisin toast (I love that too)

Moose - thank you for you kind words of reassurance and well done on your 1lb. Your ds was very brave to report a problem, and how lovely that those other boys came to talk to him. Maybe he'll get more friends and gain in confidence a bit with his friend away Is that wishful thinking?

Hi Lollipop, I like the approach suggested by Lambskin, keep it mostly friendly and throw a bit of flirting in along the way. Good luck - hope you have a lovely evening.

Lambskin, sorry you had a stressful weekend.

Must have been a nice feeling to get on the scales and see them 4lb down, even if you think its just temporary. You never know though, sometimes it happens like that and a whole chunk will just go seemingly overnight.

I managed to squeeze my workout in while dd was napping again today, which was impressive considering just 45 minutes before I'd been sobbing all over dh and saying I couldn't do it and anyway I didn't see the point with my weight hardly budging and it all being so hard.

It all got on top of me this morning, not helped by going away with a friend who has been skinny all her life and has recently developed an addiction for the gym. She's literally there every day for hours on end. She basically told me that my 20 mins of circuit training was pathetic compared to how much she works out and proceeded to eat lots of rubbish in front of me whilst telling me how she's never had to worry about her weight and anyway, now she works out so much she can eat what she likes. I did try to discuss clean eating with her, but she just continued on saying it doesn't make any difference to her because she's so fit.

I didn't think I'd let her get to me till this morning, then it all just seemed to land on me at once. Poor old dh got it both barrels when he came home for lunch, all about how I didn't feel I could carry on being so careful and strict and exercising until it hurts and I'm exhausted for a paltry 1lb a week loss (and not even that some weeks) at that rate it would take over three months to lose the next stone.

Anyway, I did manage to pull myself together eventually and just got stuck in and did my workout. Can't say I feel massively better, but I'm still on board and not intending to give up any time soon.

Moose, your 'friend' sounds like a vacuous cow . You are doing so well! You've lost nearly 2 stone! In fact you've lost more than I have and you've done it consistently and sensibly. And it's unhealthy to exercise too much, so basically she's wrong and will burnout or injure herself and you will carry on steadily losing and getting fitter. Don't try to compare yourself with other people, some people are just genetically lucky and we'll never be like that, so come on moose! Man up!

I think that should say 'woman-up'

well im a size 22 and im so fed up of going in shops and nothing fits only shops i can go in is evans mataland rogers and jeffers section marks nspencers and bon marsh other shops sell 22 but it seems a verysmall 22 they dont make them right i no how to eat healthy but i never do im in the house and get very bored i enjoy my food but once i get the taste i cant stop id love to get down to a size 14 thats what i was before i had my child id love to do a zumba class but havent got confidence to do it on my own may invest in a treadmill i am gonna start 2day 2 we could message each other see how we both get on

Thank you Lambskin, I needed a kick up the bum!

I am still low today, but better than yesterday at least. Lots of other crap going on that isn't helping at all at the moment, but I'll shake myself and get over it.

Spurred on this morning by weighing in and finding I'd dropped 2lbs, so am only 1lb off my first 2st. Not sure if its going to stay off, but its helped buck me up all the same. According to MFP I am officially at my halfway weightloss mark as of today.

Hello ladybutterfly, welcome to the thread. Have a look at My Fitness Pal its free and I've found it a massive help in learning about healthy foods, portion control and sensible calorific intake etc. There's an active community/forum on there as well, which is a hive of information and support.

Hello and welcome ladybutterfly I second what moose said about my fitness pal. I thought I was eating healthily (and I was) but just too much! I wouldn't bother shelling out on a tread mill (I've got one gathering dust in my cellar), there are some fantastic DVDs that don't cost much and that you can do in a limited space and whenever you want. I'd recommend Davina but then that's just me, moose is going great guns with the shred. Well done for taking the first and hardest step

2lbs now moose! Blimey there's no stopping you is there? Congratulations!!

Thanks Lambskin, whether it stays off remains to be seen though - had a bad stomach yesterday, so that could explain it. Seriously hoping not though.

Managed to force myself to shred this afternoon, reeeeallly didn't want to, but felt better for it afterwards. Then burned up a few calories puddle jumping with dd!

Ladybutterfly - there are some Zumba dvds on the market if you'd rather do it in the privacy of your own home. Another good place to start would be pilates as it will strengthen your core and get your muscles working but is gentle and not too extreme. Try putting in fitness dvd on Amazon and having a look. There are youtube videos of a lot of them as well, so you can see what you're in for before you spend any money.

I'd agree with Lambskin about buying exercise equipment - I've done it so many times and it always ends up gathering dust or being used as a clothes horse in the end. If you do want to invest in something, a set of ladies weights would be a good investment if you do decide to have a go at a workout dvd.

It's never easy, is it? I've gone for a job at my uni, along with half my course.

I NEED this right now, have had far too many setbacks and need something to go RIGHT because I'm resenting my disability not letting me drive.

Really want a big bowl of ice cream as I'm close to tears.

Afternoon out went well though, got a nice message from the guy saying he can't wait til next time...

Oh Lollipop, so sorry you are feeling low. There seems to be a lot of it about at the moment.

Sending you a ((hug)) in lieu of ice cream.

Pleased to hear the 'date' went well though - try to focus on that - that's something that sounds like its going really well for you.

My mood has been completely lifted!

He. Likes. Me. Too!

So we're just going to take things as they come, not rush into anything, and just enjoy each other's company.

If that's not motivation for the weight loss, I don't know what is!

So happy for you Lollipop!