@Wishingstaars , you can do this. It does help with food noise.
If you are a gym person, don't let how you view your body hold you back. These days you see all shapes and sizes in the gym. Every gym i have gone too (gone as a guest) has had a friendly and supportive vibe - Virginactive, David Lloyds, Pure gym, The Gym group. My sister has a really high BMI but is greeted warmly at the gym by staff and fellow gymers. Always someone female or male coming over to say hi, or pair up for some equipment.. or ask to do a workout routine together. Her gym (virginactive) is really lovely.
I am not a Gym person, I enjoy working out at home. Currently, only getting in 10k minimum steps a day, though. Got some physical limitations at the moment. There are lots of helpful online gyms or YouTube workouts you can do, if you do not want the gym.
Sorry about your experiences with food growing up. I didn't have that but still went wild with food on moving out of my parents' home.
My problem is food is my best friend.. in times of happiness, sadness, anxiety, travelling, tough times, feeling scared, showing love, feeling adventurous, being spontaneous, celebrations etc... I turn to food. It is all centred around food.