Does anybody else only enjoy eating on their own?

[GloiredeDijon]

I love and hate food. I am a food addict.

I love the taste and the feeling of chewing and swallowing but I hate the power it has over me, or at least did have until I found mounjaro.

I do eat in front of other people if going out for a meal (I live alone so there are no family meals at home) but I don’t really enjoy the food and am not bothered about what I eat then.

My enjoyment only comes from food I eat alone.

I had an abusive childhood where food was used as part of overall control so it isn’t hard for me to see where this comes from.

Plus years of being fat and thinking that people might be watching me eat and judging me.

I am slim now but still feel the same.

Anyone else also prefer being a solo eater?

I have had decades of “therapy” thanks before anybody suggests it!

Now aged almost 60 this is just how I am and I’m fine with that.

I don’t think you’re alone in the way you feel at all.
I don’t have the best relationship with food as I binge eat and always sit on the higher end of healthy bmi. I prefer eating alone too so I can focus on the food, otherwise I’m quite distracted and don’t enjoy it as much.

Not surprising given your background op, I am love hate with food too, but it's due to an eating disorder and not wanting to be seen to be eating, I silently judge others too, not proud of it. I think a lot of women our age have a fucked up relationship with food for lots of reasons, not least of which is a deeply entrenched diet culture, heavily perpetuated when I was growing up and still as prevalent today, probably more so, young girls have no escape from toxic social media posts.