I’m halfway through my weight loss journey and I’m 7lbs away from the weight I was 5 years ago. Once I get past that, I’m in unknown territory, heading to a number on the scales I last weight when I was 25 (I’m 50 now). Yesterday I was (strangely) having thoughts about giving up on MJ and then today I realised that it’s because at a lower weight, I don’t really know who I am…don’t know if that makes sense?
Since the age of 10, I’ve battled with my weight and I can remember what I weighed at each key milestone in my life. So much of my life was taken up with hiding my body or skulking in corners trying not to be ‘seen’ but now I’m becoming a person who can shop in most places, who willingly puts herself forward for new experiences etc. But the weird loss of ‘identity’ lingers!
Of course I’m going to continue till I’m done but there’s definitely a sense of ‘who am I now?’ I think I probably should see a counsellor to unpack all of this but does anyone else have the same sort of feelings?