I am a long-time contributor here but I've decided to share my experience under a new name. I maintain a healthy weight with a BMI of around 24, yet I've battled bulimia and binge-purge disorder for the past 20 years. I’m around the fitness industry so looks and proper nutrition are very important to me. Despite eating between 2400 and 2800 calories a day, I often found myself feeling unsatisfied. From the moment I woke up, my thoughts were consumed by food, and I struggled against the urge to binge on anything I could get my hands on. It was exhausting and far from a fulfilling life.
The only thing that held me back from indulging in cakes, chocolates, and pizzas was the fear of gaining weight, and I admit I sometimes look down on those who were fat, thinking, "Why can't you just control yourself like I have to?" I do understand how misguided that perspective is!
Over these 20 years, my binge-purge episodes varied in frequency, sometimes occurring monthly, other times several times a week. I even tried to eat over 3000 calories a day through healthy foods—loads of vegetables, lean proteins, and complex carbohydrates—but the constant "food noise" persisted.
After confiding in a doctor about my struggles and requesting medication, I was prescribed MJ. This has been a transformative experience for me. I can't express how liberating it is to no longer be preoccupied with food or to constantly battle the urge to binge.
Now, I maintain a daily intake of at least 2200 calories, as I want to nourish my body properly. Most women actually require about 2000 calories, believe it or not, so my goal isn't weight loss, but rather achieving a sense of normalcy. At last, I feel that way—I have 3 to 4 meals a day without the compulsion to binge or purge, and while I occasionally think about bingeing, I can easily push those throughs away.
I've noticed criticism directed at others who wish to use WLI, even with a BMI below 27. I suppose what I wanted to say is that I find that it is entirely possible to be at a healthy weight without underlying health issues, like diabetes, and still benefit from WLI. It’s essential to educate yourself and avoid severe calorie restriction though. If you’re suffering with anorexi it would be very dangerous.
I’m 6 weeks in now and on a micro dose, 1mg, I’m planning to stay on that for as long as I can. If I think about stopping I get very anxious as I don’t want to go back to my previous struggles..