Had some disappointing news today so currently having a glass of red and watching Black Doves. I know myself and in the past, I would be making myself feel better by eating crisps or chocolate. And it would be helping at the time.
Now - I just have no desire for that. The wine is welcome but I just don't fancy my usual guilty comfort foods. Instead, I am sampling the Christmas gift of a set of perfume samples. A bit of feel-good distraction. And no appetite even for crisps. This is not willpower, this is not even trying to "be good" and not ruining my new slimmer shape. I genuinely have no appetite for it. And even alcohol has become a very rare occasion, completely naturally.
Is it MJ or is it good habits which I have grown from being on it for the past 6 months? They do say that habits can get ingrained, both bad and good.
Anyway, this is such a subtle yet noticeable shift from the way I used to be. I do wonder if it stays once I stop MJ but the whole experience has honestly been life-changing.