I have definitely felt broken in the past, turns out I was just a bit crumpled, rather than broken beyond repair, hopefully the same will be true for you 🤞
I see ADHD medications and MJ (and HRT, which is the other prescription I have) as tools to help me make improvements - sometimes a tool will turn out to be less useful than I anticipated and that’s OK - it was still worth trying.
It gets hard to figure out what tools to try, when you are dealing with various struggles it’s hard to even know which thread to pull to start unpicking the problems.
If you were to start a weightloss injectable now you would have 3 months to see if it’s a useful tool before you have your scheduled ADHD assessment (and at the very least might help you prevent further gain through the winter period, I know I have tended to gain more in the winter months!)
Maybe the ADHD meds will be a useful tool too, maybe not (some people find they increase hyperfixations which negatively impacts relationships - I’ve been married and divorced THREE TIMES! 😂)
The best tool I have ever discovered for me
is a daylight lamp - I’ve had seasonal depression through the shorter days of winter for most of my life but 30 mins of SAD lamp a day has made it so much more tolerable. I put off trying that particular tool for years because I didn’t want to spend the money on something useless (which was daft because one of the major manufacturers offers a 30 day guaranteed money back trial as long as you cover postage both ways).
CBT can be helpful for breaking negative thought processes via tiny, tiny steps - if you haven’t already done it you may be able to apply for NHS help online via your nearest IAPT service, no need for GP referral (the wait list might be quite long but time is gonna go by anyway so may as well be on the list). I know some people who have done sort of self CBT via a workbook - something to look into while trying to decide your priorities/which thread to pull first?