This is likely to be rambling but I'm struggling so much and wanted to just get it down into words.
Our wonderful boy had to be put to sleep last Thursday after another unexpected internal bleeding. The whole situation was awful (having to drive him an hour in the car to referral vet when he was so very poorly, no support to do 'the right thing' at my local vet, husband wasn't able to make it to say goodbye etc etc) and he was my little shadow so I expected to feel grief and sadness but oh my god its just hitting me repeatedly. I cannot stop crying and it feels like it physically hurts? How on earth do you deal with this grief?
On top of it all I almost feel like I don't have a right to be as heartbroken as I feel because it wasn't a human?
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How do you cope with grief?
NotHooray · 16/04/2024 15:07
Scampuss · 16/04/2024 16:04
So sorry
It's quite a shock I think when we realise how very close to our hearts they are.
Blue Cross have a pet loss helpline which might be useful:
https://www.bluecross.org.uk/pet-bereavement-and-pet-loss
It doesn't work for everyone but, for me, getting another cat from rescue has helped me re-focus after losing beloved cats. I only ever have singletons so the emptiness is hard.
Pudmyboy · 16/04/2024 17:14
So sorry for your loss @NotHooray , I lost my little love in January and still feel his loss dreadfully, especially at night when we snuggled up on the sofa. I did say to people that I loved him so much, but that hurt, and didn't feel right, but once I started saying that I still love him and always will, in a strange way it helped, so for me acknowledging the whole hearted love I will always feel, helped. Big unMumsnetty hug, take it day by day and let yourself grieve, he was a very special cat 💐
Toddlerteaplease · 16/04/2024 16:16
Sorry for the multiple posts. But I also found the (lovely vets) neutral stance slightly tricky. I was having to ask if it was fixable. Although when I said it was easier with the other two. I just knew. She said "I think she told you as soon as you came into the room" which helped. And when I asked if PTS was the right decision. She said it was.
chatenoire · 16/04/2024 16:06
Just came to mention Blue Cross.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I still miss my Katzie, she was with me for 15 years, and sadly lost her almost 10 years ago. I swear I can still sometimes feel her.
You will get there I promise.
Scampuss · 16/04/2024 16:04
So sorry
It's quite a shock I think when we realise how very close to our hearts they are.
Blue Cross have a pet loss helpline which might be useful:
https://www.bluecross.org.uk/pet-bereavement-and-pet-loss
It doesn't work for everyone but, for me, getting another cat from rescue has helped me re-focus after losing beloved cats. I only ever have singletons so the emptiness is hard.
SeagullSong · 16/04/2024 15:22
Condolences on the loss of your beautiful boy. He was a loved family member so please let yourself grieve all you need to. I do understand what you mean, in that when I lost a pet my closest friends had both recently been bereaved of human family members so I felt I could not turn to them. Otherwise, most people are sympathetic and may surprise you. The Litter Tray community here is very supportive too.
susiedaisy1912 · 16/04/2024 18:40
Op I'm so sorry you've lost your beautiful boy. I lost my ginger boy 2 years ago suddenly at 8 years old. He just dropped dead in front of me with a heart attack. I was beside myself and tried to give him cpr. The neighbours came out to help after they heard me wailing. It was so traumatic I couldn't go to work for a week. But as time passed I can now look back at the memories we had with him with fondness. We loved him so much and he had the best life a cat could have. 6 months after he passed we got two kittens and at first I felt guilty for loving them and enjoying their company as it felt disloyal to my ginger boy but as they say time is a great healer. Allow yourself time to grieve and don't feel guilty grieving because it was 'only ' a cat. They are family through and through.
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