My dog died today

[Moonbearlove]

Hello, my 16 year old dog died this afternoon. She had a grade 5/6 heart murmur and was frail but she was eating and drinking. It happened so fast. I was in the shower and found her in her basket, having soiled it, agonal breathing. I rushed her to the vet but she died as soon as I arrived. I absolutely loved her so so much. She was like a child to me and she my 9 year old daughter adored her. She told me she saw her collapse when i was in the shower but didnt tell me. I wish she had. I've experienced loss before but my God this hurts. Everything reminds me of her. I miss her so much. Please tell me it gets easier. I wish I'd spent more time with her today but she seemed OK. My heart is broken.

so sorry for your loss. She was clearly so loved ♥️

So sorry you have lost your beautiful dog. It never feels like it’s time , but 16 is a great age. Please don’t feel bad about time you did not spend today. She loved and was loved for a long time.

It will get easier, but for now just let yourself grieve. 💐 for you and your daughter.

I'm so sorry.

You sound like you've been a loving owner. Please be kind to yourself

I’m so sorry I’m sure your dog knew how much they were loved

It's the worst pain ever, but it does ease, it just takes time. I'm so sorry for your loss x

Sorry for your loss . We lost our lovely boy suddenly on Nov 3rd just gone so I know exactly how you feel , he was the doggy love of my life and I miss him immensely. 💐💔

I am so sorry for your loss. I echo what others have put.... please be kind to yourself. Big hug x

Sorry for your loss.

So sorry for your loss - 💐

Oh OP it's awful isn't it. I'm a couple of years ahead of you and I still miss the old girl every day.

It does get easier though, I guess we get used to it and it's softens.

I'm so sorry

I'm so sorry for your loss, OP. It does get easier but please allow yourself to grieve. The love we have for our animals is very real, however many people might say it's only a dog. She was part of your life for a long time and you will miss her but I'm sure you gave her a fabulous life. Sending lots of love and hugs. ❤️

I'm sorry for your loss. Remember that you gave her 16 love filled years (nearly 6000 days), don't focus on the what-ifs of a single day (today).

Thank you all for your replies. I didn't think it would happen like this, thought she'd go off her food but she was eating and drinking ok. I'm wracked with guilt as I told her she was naughty this morning for doing a poo in the house. Why the hell didnt i just leave it. I just wish this was a terrible dream. She used to sleep in my room and would wake ne up in the morning barking for her breakfast at 7am sharp. She was so tiny and I used to sleep in my arms in her blanket. She was the sweetest, most gentle most loving soul. She was my best friend. The house feels so empty without her.

I'm so sorry. It's a truly heartbreaking time. My dog died 3 years ago and I truly thought my heart would break.

She was like a 4th child to me. I'm aware that might sound a bit melodramatic and ridiculous. I would have thought that too until I experienced her loss. It's not melodramatic and it's not ridiculous.

It will soften but probably not for quite some time. Be kind to yourself.

My big dog died in November and my little dog the September before. It is so hard, I see them everywhere. They were a huge part of my life. The only consolation is that they were loved and had a loving, quiet, safe home. It is such a big loss.

@marthaisintheway I'm sorry for your loss too. I've known for some time that she was near the end of her life and tried to prepare myself but I feel like I've been hit by a lorry. The pain is unbearable. I just wish I had made more of the time I had with her. I'm in bed now and for the last 16 years she slept in her bed on the floor right next to me. Often I'd put her bed on my bed so we slept right next to each other. I miss her gentle breathing. I feel I've lost my child. I couldn't afford a cremation so I took her home in a box. I will bury her tomorrow in the garden but tonight she's in the box in the garden (I don't have a garage or shed) and I feel terrible about leaving her there all alone. Tomorrow ill wake up and forget she died for a few seconds and then it'll hit me.

I'm so sorry.

They are like a muscle memory and their absence leaves such a huge hole.

I really feel for you, it's awful. But you looked after her for the whole of her life, she loved you and she knew you loved her.

I’m so very sorry, it’s heartbreaking.
Our boy died on August 17th and I think I’ve shed tears for him every day since. I’ve never known pain like it.

Sending you much love

So sorry for your loss, she sounds like she had the best family x

Truly sorry for your loss. No-one can take away all the amazing memories, cherish them. Sending you a hug 🐾🩷

You poor thing, I'm so sorry for your loss 😢

I'm so sorry for all of your losses and thank you for sharing. @Pumpkintopf muscle memory is just what it's like. I just wish there was something to take the edge off the pain.

I'm so sorry for your loss, OP. They break our hearts when they go. Your dog knew how much she was loved and it was obviously her time. You're taking on the pain now so she doesn't have to. Take care. X

So sorry OP .. I know how heartbreaking this is .. sending you 🤗