I feel like my heart might break in two. My lovely boy is 15. He's the sweetest, gentlest soul. He's never snapped at the kids. He's never been anything apart from my boy.
He sleeps in the crook of my knees in bed. He follows me everywhere. He adores the kids.
But he's lost most of his sight & hearing. He's vague. He's started barking if I'm not in the same room. He looks lost. He's weeing & pooing everywhere indoors. If you put him outside he just looks confused and comes back in. He vomits quite a lot. This isn't new - it's been deteriorating for a few months. The vet suggested dementia.
Last night, I thought he'd gone a few times. I willed him to make it to the morning so the kids could say a cheery good morning to him before they went to school.
My heart knows I need to do this for him but I don't know how to. I mean, I know HOW to but I can't bear it.
I don't really know why I'm posting. Probably because i can't say the words outloud
He is loved and cherished and a massive part of our family
I need to do it for him, don't I?