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I think I know it's time...

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Gr33ngr33ngr4ss · 02/11/2022 09:47

I feel like my heart might break in two. My lovely boy is 15. He's the sweetest, gentlest soul. He's never snapped at the kids. He's never been anything apart from my boy.

He sleeps in the crook of my knees in bed. He follows me everywhere. He adores the kids.

But he's lost most of his sight & hearing. He's vague. He's started barking if I'm not in the same room. He looks lost. He's weeing & pooing everywhere indoors. If you put him outside he just looks confused and comes back in. He vomits quite a lot. This isn't new - it's been deteriorating for a few months. The vet suggested dementia.

Last night, I thought he'd gone a few times. I willed him to make it to the morning so the kids could say a cheery good morning to him before they went to school.

My heart knows I need to do this for him but I don't know how to. I mean, I know HOW to but I can't bear it.

I don't really know why I'm posting. Probably because i can't say the words outloud

He is loved and cherished and a massive part of our family
I need to do it for him, don't I?

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Gr33ngr33ngr4ss · 03/11/2022 20:14

I keep looking next to me on the sofa and he's not there

Someone, maybe me today's a blur, said why can't they stay forever. And I thought, because then I'd have to leave him alone and that would be so much worse.

My eyes hurt. Early night. Wake up and he won't be here. It's just so painful. But tomorrow is a new day. Xx

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Gr33ngr33ngr4ss · 03/11/2022 20:14

userxx · 03/11/2022 19:34

This is heartbreaking to read, my dog also snuggles up in the crook of my knees. Im going to be going through the pain of losing him soon.

You absolutely did the right thing for your boy, as hard as it was for you it was the kindest thing for him. 💐

Sending hugs. Xx

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Saddogmum73 · 04/11/2022 08:47

I can only imagine how you feel, my 12 year old golden retriever has had mobility issues for a while but he was doing ok however recently he has not been himself and started not eating and sporadic vomiting. We took him to the vet and they have just confirmed that he has kidney disease and there is nothing that can be done.

After discussions with the vet we’ve made the heartbreaking decision that putting him to sleep is the right thing. We’ve got it booked for the vet to come to the house (he gets too stressed going to the vets surgery) where we will be and hopefully it will be peaceful.

it doesn’t seem real and every time I think about it or have to talk about it I start to cry. People will say it’s just a dog, but he’s not he’s my second baby….. dreading when it happens but want to hold it together for him so he doesn’t see Mummy crying!

Going to spoil him in the remaining time he has left.

Sorry, that was long and didn’t mean to hijack your thread.

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Gr33ngr33ngr4ss · 04/11/2022 12:27

Saddogmum73 · 04/11/2022 08:47

I can only imagine how you feel, my 12 year old golden retriever has had mobility issues for a while but he was doing ok however recently he has not been himself and started not eating and sporadic vomiting. We took him to the vet and they have just confirmed that he has kidney disease and there is nothing that can be done.

After discussions with the vet we’ve made the heartbreaking decision that putting him to sleep is the right thing. We’ve got it booked for the vet to come to the house (he gets too stressed going to the vets surgery) where we will be and hopefully it will be peaceful.

it doesn’t seem real and every time I think about it or have to talk about it I start to cry. People will say it’s just a dog, but he’s not he’s my second baby….. dreading when it happens but want to hold it together for him so he doesn’t see Mummy crying!

Going to spoil him in the remaining time he has left.

Sorry, that was long and didn’t mean to hijack your thread.

No don't apologise. I'm so sorry.

It's the hardest thing I've ever done. If you need to keep talking, keep talking.

I keep looking at photos and it's almost disbelief that he isn't here and that's because of me. But if I was weeing on walls and vomiting and didn't know where I was, I'd want something done. I just miss him. My boy

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HalfWower · 04/11/2022 17:01

Lots of love to you OP. You repaid him for the wonderful 15 years he gave you. Hope you are bearing up xx

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