*TW pet loss* Lost my 5 year old girl today. I'm in bits.

[letsjog]

I'm sorry I'm not sure what to do with myself at the moment so hoping letting it out in here might help.
She was such a good girl.
Me and the DCs were giving her a belly rub this morning on our bed and now she's gone.

I'm currently looking at cremation options and I keep breaking down.

It's horrible isn't it @Missingjigsawpuzzle our girl went the same way.
DP took her out for a socially distanced walk with a friend. She bolted. She never ever did that. Especially not for DP. He had just pulled out the lead to get her on, the road was comfortably over 20 yards away and was along side the route they were taking not a part of it, she wouldn't listen when he recalled. She ALWAYS listened when he recalled. And she never got that far away from us when we walked.

I took her to the vet because I didn't want the DCs to see too much and before I handed her over I told her what a good girl she was.

DP has been blaming himself, he misses her so much too. It's really not his fault, his friend even said she stuck right by DPs side on the entire 2 hour walk. He has been getting up with the DCs and leaving me to sleep in, he's been making me drinks and offering cuddles galore. We've cried together.
It's so raw.

I am so, so sorry. There's no pain quite like it, especally when it's sudden. Thinking of you all

My friend had a teddy made out of her dog's blanket. She didn't wash it first, so.she has his smell. It really is a lovely thing.
Let me see if I can find a picture.

Here they are.

And I am so sorry, they certainly do get under your skin.
I still catch my breath when I think of my horse and I lost him 18 years ago. Such a sad, sad time

I miss my boy every day, he was only four and had epilepsy, it became so bad seeing him having fits and knowing that he was just getting worse even with the medication that he was on, then one night he just fell over and went into fit after fit and we knew that it was time to let him go and I never felt such grief and awful guilt, I felt that I had let him down, I love him so much and I still break down and cry.

We lost our dog two weeks ago at 12. I still feel physically sick every time I think of her. It hurts my chest and I can’t breath. It’s awful. I’m sorry for your loss.

So sorry for your loss.
Years ago now but one of my dogs did the same. Was always bomb proof, never left your side. One day she thought she saw someone she knew the other side of the road...
The noise she made was haunting, she was badly injured but not killed, the vet operated and she lived a few more years but I always kick myself for not stopping it happening. She was the dog out of all the ones I’ve owned over the years that you would never think would have done it. It was completely out of character.
Look after yourself and remember she had a great life with you and you can’t give them any more than that.

That's lovely @NiceTwin she didn't have a favourite blanket, she had free roam on the sofas and beds and always just snuggled into our sheets and throws,
I think I'm going to make a little box up with her ashes, her collar and lead and my favourite picture and her teddy.

DP won't be able to look at her ashes on the shelf and I respect that, he's hurting so much everytime he looks at the picture we have up of her already.
This way I can get the box out whenever I need to and have a chat. Sounds silly.

So sorry for everyone's losses. They all hold such special places in our hearts don't they.

Would anyone like to share some pictures?

I’m so, so sorry for your loss.

Thankyou @doodleygirl

I had an OK evening all things considered. Until the DCs went to bed and I went to my bedroom and found her muddy paw print on the sheet. And then I had a huge sob over a paw print that I told DP off about a few days prior because he didn't watch her and she got on the bed before a bath after a muddy walk.
DP gave me the biggest hug and tried his best to cheer me up.
I find evenings are much harder when there's less to do, they're a time when we would usually let her snuggle with us on the sofa and now we are just blankly watching TV trying to distract ourselves.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I lost my best friend of 15 years last summer and still miss her terribly. But that awful grief sadness does pass.

Something that brought me immense peace was getting some jewellery made with her ashes (I used Everwith) - means a little piece of her is always with me, just where she'd want to be.

Not everyone's cup of tea, but it really helped. We have the rest of her ashes but a nice photo of her. X

I’m so sorry for your loss @letsjog and all you other broken hearted PPs
It’s 2 weeks today for me.
Her absence is everywhere too.
I don’t know how to get through this.

I’m so sorry for your loss @letsjog and all you other broken hearted PPs
It’s 2 weeks today for me.
Her absence is everywhere too.
I don’t know how to get through this.

I’m so sorry for your loss @letsjog and all you other broken hearted PPs
It’s 2 weeks today for me.
Her absence is everywhere too.
I don’t know how to get through this.

letsjog I'm so sorry for your loss, I lost my girl 2 years in Nov just gone. She was an old lady and it was the right thing to do for her but I still really struggled. It must be so very hard having her taken so suddenly and unexpectedly. Thinking of you and sending

I made a photo canvas of some of my fave pictures and it's on the wall above where her bed was in the lounge. Dcats & new dpup bed are in a different place.

I'd love to see a photo.

This has happened to me @letsjog, so I know how devastating it is. Once My 13 month old girl died at the scene, the other time my older boy sustained a back injury while jumping for a ball and was PTS in the back of the car, so never went home.

You never replace them, but, in all honesty, they leave a dog-shaped hole and I definitely was happier once I had another dog. The longest I've been without a dog in the last 30+yrs is two weeks, I didn't like it.

You will get over this, you won't forget her, but eventually you'll just smile at the memory, not cry.

I'll try and upload a photo from my mobile for some reason the app on my iPad is a bit iffy @StrawberryFizz26 and it's a lovely idea about the frame, sorry about your loss.
I'm ordering a box with her name on it and her urn alongside a photo, her lead and collar and her favourite teddy will all go in there.

That's so sad @catsrus sorry about your losses. I completely understand where you are coming from, I know at some point I will be ready for another dog. I'm a dog person. I'm just not ready right now. And me and DP have been talking about all of her quirks and her funny antics. She was such a lovely girl. I'm so grateful for being able to have her in my life, then at the same time this big part of me feels so guilty that I'm going to slowly move on. I'm not really religious or woo but I just want to know she's ok...

Here she is, she loved the snow.

letsjog she looks so cute!!! Hope today is okay for you.

What a little beauty! And such a look of love in those eyes.

What a splendid pooch !
Be kind to yourself, this is a huge loss for you all xx

@letsjog, Lily is a beauty❤️

I hope today is a little better for you.

Thankyou all. She was beautiful, her eyes in that photo reflect her so well, it's the one that will be going in her box.

I haven't had my cry yet today. I know it's coming at some point. We're going out for a drive today, not getting out anywhere just anything to get out of the house without actually going for a walk, none of us really feel up to a walk without her right now.

Keep seeing people walking past the window with their gorgeous pooches and it makes me so sad not being able to take her on a walk ever again.

I'm so sorry. I couldn't not post. I do know how you feel. I lost my ten month puppy last year in a sudden accident. It was awful. The worse thing is that unlike losing an older dog to illness (which I have done also) there is no way to justify it. There's no 'she had a good life. It was her time.' Or 'illness is sad but it happens and we tried everything but we couldn't save her''.

It's just so pointless.

In the end I had to hang on to the fact that she was so loved and had such a happy life with us and it was an accident. Just dumb bad luck.

I will tell you what we did which was to get another puppy fairly quickly. I don't know why, it just seemed the right thing. Perhaps because we felt we were just in the middle of a conversation with our pup and we didn't get to finish it.

We didn't get the same breed and our new pup has a totally different energy but we adore her and she has been very healing. However, just recently (the past few days) I have been really missing our puppy who died. I think it's the promise of Spring on the way and things growing and just how she delighted in being outside.

I am just accepting it though and not fighting the grief but trying to welcome it as a way of remembering her.

I'm really sorry.