Alfie is being PTS tomorrow. I’m heartbroken.

[mamarach26]

I had a thread a few months ago, about my best mate Alfie.
We found out he had a tumour in his neck. He has lasted 3 months but now the time has come.
It’s abcessed and become really smelly, he’s still eating, drinking and eating fine.
He’s being put to sleep tomorrow and I’m lost I’m a wreck.
He won’t want to go in the vets tomorrow and will be pulling to leave.
I feel so guilty.

[Otterseatpuffinsdontthey]

[Middleoftheroad]

It will feel so strange. I remember trying to fill that hole, but it gets easier with time.

Remember, if he could have spoken he would have thanked you for not letting him go on to suffer, so you did a kind act for your boy.

I hope you manage some rest and I'm thinking of you and knowing how hard it's been. You sound like a lovely owner.

[mamarach26]

Thank you everyone for your kind words.
Waking up to no Alfie is hard. I still said morning moon as usual, now I’m sat here in tears.
I think I’ll take the boys out today to distract me, I miss him so much.

[Middleoftheroad]

Oh mama, I feel for you. Just woken and wondered how your night was.

The best thing is to go out, have conpany and distract yourself. I promise it will get easier but today will be the toughest, so be kind to yourself.

[mamarach26]

Waking up and going down and he wasn’t on the bottom step with his big eyes looking at me was hard.
I’m gonna get dressed and take piper out, then I’ll take the boys out for the day. The house is bare without him.
Thank you for thinking about me, it means a lot.

[Middleoftheroad]

I remember the pain and that's why I feel for you. I just had to get out and my parents took me out of the house.

Can your DH go too as it's good to talk. If you can get through today each other day will be a little easier.

[mamarach26]

Yeah he will come too, I’ll take the boys out with my mum and dad I think so DP can get some rest!
He was like my shadow so it’s strange that he’s not here.

[Rowgtfc72]

Sorry to hear about Alfie. I followed your other threads and hoped you would get longer with your boy.

Were at the vets tues with our skinny jrt. She eats ,walks,plays but is losing weight at a rate of knots. She's 16 and I think we're going to have to make that awful decision too.

[mamarach26]

He held on for 5 months after the vet saying he had a couple of weeks at best. It was the hardest thing to do and I miss him more than I could of imagined, but I know there is no pain now.
I’m so sorry to hear that, they really are part of the family when they are with you for so long. I have a shit Tzu at my parents and she is 14. She has a heart mumor and bad arthritis so I know she is gonna start going down hill soon too.
It’s the hardest part of having a pet.

[JeezeLouise]

oh mama I'm so sorry to see your darling Alfie is gone. I followed your first thread but had managed to lose it and had been looking for it lately to see how Alfie was doing. What a lucky boy he was, having you as his Mum to love him and make the hardest decision because it's best for him. whatever helps xx

[mamarach26]

Thank you so much!
I’ve not cried today... yet.

[Bahhhhhumbug]

Ah bless you. Horrible time, l had my 16 Yr old boy pts last year. Like Alfie when he kept coming over he too let me know he'd had enough, l am sure dogs do that you. My Bixter was slowly losing his mobity and started soiling himself and his bed because he simply couldn't get up in time. He just looked up at me about the third time this happened as l was trying hoist him up with a towel and get him in the shower, as if to say ' l can't do this anymore mum please '
Sad thing was once he was cleaned up and up on his feet he seemed fine again like Alfie but the vet said. by how stiff his joints were he will definitely have been in pain but they are brilliant at hiding it.... something to do with survival in the wild and being vulnerable to attack. So you did the right thing by Alfie and it sounds as if he landed on his feet the day he came to you, you sound such a loving caring owner and take comfort from the fact you did right by Alfie right to the end. xx

[Bahhhhhumbug]

Sorry not sure what the random 'you' was for at the end of third sentence.

[Middleoftheroad]

Hi Mama
Hope today is a little kinder for you

[mamarach26]

Thank you for sharing that with me, it sounds very similar to Alfie.
We all know what the right thing is but it’s so hard. He had lost 4kg and that was his body shutting down.
Took the boys out to distract myself, they have been little terrors.
His sofa still smells of him, I still expect him to be tapping behind me.

[WhoAteAllTheDinosaurs]

to you, you did the right thing, the last kind thing you could do for him.

I know how hard it is, we had my greyhound girl put to sleep 2 weeks ago. I still look for her in the house, and I miss her enormously. But as time passes I feel more sure that it was the right thing to do.

Look after yourself.

[yawning801]

Threads like these don't normally make me cry, but I did shed a tear at this one. I'm so sorry for your loss, he's now watching you from above whilst gobbling chocolate like no tomorrow.

[mamarach26]

Yeah, I agree. It’s only been a few days since he went but it was harder seeing him waste away.
Everyone on my street keeps saying “where is he?” When I’m just walking piper.

[mamarach26]

And yes to the chocolate, and McDonald’s cheeseburgers!

[Middleoftheroad]

Hi Mama. How was today?

[mamarach26]

Today was okay, I just try and get out of the house really.
I’m feeling a bit better, still miss him so much though. We have a lot going on at the moment and moving house as my landlord is selling up and it’s been a nightmare trying to find a house in my area that takes dogs. We have a viewing on Saturday though so I’m distracting myself.
My three year old keeps asking where he is though and I’m unsure what to say?