@Begoniasforever thank you. Excellently put. I really don't understand some people.
Yea I'm watching slowly, in an almost therapy like way.
I was 16, saving for uni, my now DH was on a summer baling contract. I went down and worked in the sort of motel, truckers lodge place they were staying in.
I remember the moment the news broke, we were about ten miles away, grown men in tears.
I have never forgotten how we searched and searched, all of us.
To this day I think of that time and what we saw.
My parents, in very rural Scotland, were sympathetic and upset but happy for me to stay and help. But also talk of it, both now with advanced dementia.
I have a Holly as a middle name to my second, Christmas born baby. My grandmother was Ivy. I still feel funny when I meet siblings Holly and Jessica.
Anyway, will keep watching slowly, but feeling strange