Cold turkey- help me when I'm tempted

[rainbowdash17]

I'm about to go cold turkey from cocaine.
It's time to! Definitely
My weak points are when I'm tempted to buy some (usually evenings)

Can I message on here when I'm tempted for a pep talk on why I shouldn't & reassurance that it's ok?
I think it would really help me

Do you reckon we can do this?

That's really great flat

Tbh it does feel different today. I enjoyed my open, honest talk with dh. The money conversation was very useful. Looking at holidays has been lovely. We do live a nice lifestyle but it could and should be even nicer tbh. I'm honestly not boasting but I am just sick of pissing money away. He really sees that I'm serious. I want it to be over. I'm feeling a lot more 'over' the miscarriage and the loss of my relative and even though the cravings come I don't feel the same need that I used to.

I'm not naive though, I know it won't be a walk in the park. The holiday is a solid, tangible saving goal though and I think that that's positive.

And he's not a lawyer lol, far from it but I see what you mean

Glad things are changing in your head a bit cleaning. The one thing I have learnt over the last few months is that this is a slow process, but as long as we are inching forward then that has to be a positive. No judgment this end , that's not what this thread is about

Cleaning your doing so well. I think addictions bad enough when it's just you, adding a partner/friend/relative with the same vice to the mix can't be easy.

Before I was pregnant if DH offered me anything (he's a former cannabis addict) I would of probably took his hand off. Luckily I've never took to cannabis I don't know why. Possibly because I know I have an addictive personality so I've always kept cannabis and alcohol at arms length.

I still think a mini blowout is better then taking it sparingly all the time. At least you can function without it IYSWIM.

I couldn't of.

Morning everyone.
cleaning Onwards and upwards. There are pros and cons to having a partner in crime, the plus being that you can support each other and ride it out together.
My advice would be (for what it's worth ) similar to flat's, keeping inching forwards. Get a clean weekend under your belt and then aim for a clean week. We'll be cheering you on!

Hope you're packing for Suffolk, flat you have to take so much stuff with little ones, it's like moving house .
In case you are in the middle of nowhere with no wifi, good luck. Let us know how it goes.Keep surfing the riptide dude.

Serial keep strong, gunning for a clean weekend with me.

Morning all!! Cleaning hope you are ok? Ilostit and serial get back on those surfboards. Unborn thanks for popping in and for the encouragement. It's swings and roundabouts, at least with your addiction you were able to function seven days a week. With coke I am out for 1-2 days a week on a horrific comedown. Which isn't too bad every so often, but it soon starts to impact your life when it's over a significant period of time.

I will pop in over the weekend if I have wifi, but will report back Monday if not. Actually feeling excited about a guaranteed sober weekend

God it's cold today! I have a surfboard and arm bands!

Will be donning my inflatable ring later with blow up duck's head. Don't want to slipping under tonight.
Yes, serial it's bloody freezing.
Hope flat has decent heating in her country cottage. I'm imagining that scene from Withnail and I when they're wandering about with four jumpers on trying to light a fire and swearing at each other..

Ilostit you won't believe it, the owner of the cottage has just called to say the boiler is broken!! FFS!!

Lost is psychic - unless you are actually Richard E Grant?!

Lost is easily psychic! She kept going on about the bloody heating...,,,

Eerily not easily

Oh bollocks about the boiler! At least you found out before you got there.

I think I've had my first ever premonition!
On a serious note, I'm so sorry you can't go now. Are you having a wobble about the weekend now?

Aha!!!!! Finally luck is back on our side, owner has sorted it, we will be toasty and warm in Suffolk!! However Ilostit yes I was having a massive wobble about staying sober, first thing I thought about was getting some gear in to commiserate! Seriously, bloody coke brain is always looking for a way in

Do you have a plan b now flat?
I think I cursed the boiler

Ah phew, I didn't curse it! I thought I was turning into some sort of witch for a minute. I don't want clairvoyant powers, it's creepy.

So back to plan A

Yes the evil coke brain always sneaks up on you. I've had a few Fuck it it's Friday thoughts but riding them out at mo.

Hi all! Sorry for only checking in now. All very good our end, we feel a lot more confident about things. I'm determined to go somewhere really nice this summer and dh and I really seem to be in a good place. I think when you've been together for a long time it's so easy to forget to talk.

Not a single Friday thought here... refreshingly weird.

I think we have truly turned a corner and we're both feeling optimistic. I'll keep you posted.

Thank you for all of your words of encouragement, have a good & clean weekend

Being very strong. Have arranged something tomorrow which means I absolutely CAN NOT get fucked up tonight.

Yes you are being refreshingly weird, cleaning
So pleased you're feeling so strong and optimistic. It's brilliant you've hashed it all out with dh and have something to aim for (holiday).
Here for you if there are any bumps in the road.

serial keep strong. You've done it this far

I'm having a couple in our local tonight with dh but not a late one. Determined not to do Anything Silly.

Actually I posted that and thought, who am I trying to kid? I'm feeling really on edge and dying for a line, can't seem to concentrate on anything at the moment. Not sure if I should go out or if it'll take my mind off it .

Going to have a fag in the garden and try to get my head straight.

Am currently cooking. And smoking, and drinking wine. I WILL go to bed at a reasonable hour and not be fucked up!

I'm cheering you on, serial Easy on the wine as bottle of wine = serious decline in will power.

Just got annihilated on another thread for saying I'd shag Russell Brand so that's taking my mind off things.

I'd marry him!

OMG I Would happily do him too!!!

Most said he's an odious man that needs a good wash..meh. Glad you're on my side

Am surfing some serious waves through Soho tonight.....