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Cocaine in my life

46 replies

Tiddlypoo8 · 24/12/2016 03:15

Hi there,
Need a bit of advice. I've been through a terrible year, and I've got in a spot of bother now..

  • my husband if 11 years turned out to be a bigamist
  • became single parent
  • lost house
  • lost car
  • have had to change daughters schooling
  • I suffer from PTSD and OCD severely

I turned to cocaine to cheer me up on recline faction from a friend and at first I could take or leave it. I don't feel I'm addicted, but I feel like if I'm extremely happy or very sad then I reach for it.

Any advice please?

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BastardGoDarkly · 24/12/2016 03:21

Really, the only advice is to stay away from it.

It will get so that you spend your bill money on it, because you just need to feel better for a while.

You've had a terrible time, I'm so sorry, but coke will bring you much much worse.

How often are you doing it?

Can you go back to your GP and explain you're not coping? (You don't have to mention the coke)

endofthelinefinally · 24/12/2016 03:25

It will destroy your life and probably kill you in the end.

Get it out of your life now, while you still can.

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Tiddlypoo8 · 25/12/2016 04:47

For the last few days I've spent £150 a day. I don't usually spend this much. Unusually spend £20 a time.

I'm so ashamed. Want to delete the telephone number of person I get it from, so I can't get any-that's a big step for me X

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Tiddlypoo8 · 25/12/2016 04:48

I haven't yet deleted telephone number- should I?
I just think what if I need a bit

For instance today u got a little bit for Crimbo £40 worth, then got another £50 and then another £40 all in one night

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reader77 · 25/12/2016 04:52

If you really want to stop, delete the number.

Can you think of a healthier way to deal with difficult feelings?

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Tiddlypoo8 · 25/12/2016 04:53

Just deleted the number of the individual I buy from- this is really big for me

I can't get any now. That's good.

It's awful in a way how easy it is to obtain drugs. You ask for them & they're delivered in 10 mins- it's too easy and too expensive. But panicky that I've deleted the number but it's a big positive step.

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Gingernaut · 25/12/2016 05:00

Narcotics Anonymous

Samaritans

Talk to Frank

SupportLine

Cocaine has become a problem. You don't need it. No one needs it. You're self medicating with a Class A drug. Delete your dealer's number. Please.

Talk to your GP about a referral for your mental health problems.

Gingernaut · 25/12/2016 05:01

Sorry took too long to post.

Well done for deleting that number.

reader77 · 25/12/2016 05:07

Nice one. Smile

NC1nightstand · 25/12/2016 05:08

You need help and support to deal with this.
So simple yet absolutely massive!
You've done the first step by posting on here.
Lot's of options such as look up narcotics anonymous in your area and go to a meeting, go to your doctor and she/he can refer you to your local addiction unit.
Please don't suffer this alone you can recover and you have taken the first step and that is something to feel really good about. Xmas Smile

NC1nightstand · 25/12/2016 05:29

My God, I am so slow at bloody typing in the time it took me to write that you've taken a massive step and Ginger has said very similar but with posh links to actual phone numbers!!! Grin

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Tiddlypoo8 · 25/12/2016 21:33

First Coke free night... I'm doing it!!! :-)

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BastardGoDarkly · 25/12/2016 22:04

Christmas day too!!! Go Tiddly !!!!

Best present you could have given yourself!

I'm proud of you, keep going :)

BastardGoDarkly · 25/12/2016 22:05

When I did drugs (I did a loooooot of drugs, for a loooooong time) Christmas was binge time, so honestly, you've done so well.

reader77 · 25/12/2016 23:48

Well done! One day/night at a time, that's the way. ❤️

WynterBlossom · 25/12/2016 23:54

Congratulations OP.

I haven't ever "dabbled" in drugs but have witnessed the devastating effect it can have on people & close family around them.

Keep it up! Flowers

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Tiddlypoo8 · 26/12/2016 12:27

I did it- day 2...
It is hard but it's good I deleted my contacts- I literally have no way of getting any

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thethoughtfox · 26/12/2016 12:32

Reaching for drugs to manage feelings is bad news. Very soon it won't be a real choice you make any more. You know what you need to do x

TheCrowFromBelow · 26/12/2016 13:54

Well done! Stick with it. Hard but for the best.

cocochanel21 · 26/12/2016 14:04

Well done.
My DD always said she could stop taking drugs whenever she wanted. She couldn't do it.
3 years of hell followed she died last year in tragic circumstances she was only 23.
Drugs have destroyed my family's life.

BastardGoDarkly · 26/12/2016 21:45

Oh coco I'm so very sorry to hear that x

endofthelinefinally · 27/12/2016 07:04

Coco I am so sorry.
All those years of love and care.
It is heart breaking.
X

pinkypiecupcake · 28/12/2016 05:18

I wasn't successful :-(
I had some after 2 days

pinkypiecupcake · 28/12/2016 05:19

Gosh coco- I'm sorry Hun
Makes me determined and want to succeed

SouthPole · 28/12/2016 08:21

Find your local NA or even AA (same premise).

You'll never look back.

Coco - there are no words, I'm so sorry your baby died. I hope you're getting the support you need my
Love x

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