Cocaine in my life

[Tiddlypoo8]

Hi there,
Need a bit of advice. I've been through a terrible year, and I've got in a spot of bother now..

• my husband if 11 years turned out to be a bigamist
• became single parent
• lost house
• lost car
• have had to change daughters schooling
• I suffer from PTSD and OCD severely

I turned to cocaine to cheer me up on recline faction from a friend and at first I could take or leave it. I don't feel I'm addicted, but I feel like if I'm extremely happy or very sad then I reach for it.

Any advice please?

I blew my nose this morning which hurt and loads of cartilage and blood came out, and it scared me- I'm planning on an early night (coke free day 1) to break the cycle of being up late in the evenings then giving in to temptation, which is exactly what happenes- I can be really strong until evening tiredness hits, then because I find it all new, hard and horrible going to bed on my own, I almost fear sleeping so get coke so I don't have to- sad, I know, but brutally honest.
I suffer from ptsd so nights were hard anyway but becoming a single mum, losing our family, our home, adapting to this new routibe, new house and my supposed husband of 11 years being a bigamist has mucked me up- it's bad enough with the flashbacks and night terrors of it's, but facing that alone at night is pretty scary after all this change...I can see how I got here, so I'm trying to adapt, overcome and hold back the tears

How are you doing tonight OP?

How are you doing tonight OP?

Coke is very moreish but it very quickly traps you in a nightmareish cycle. Honestly, being brave for a few evenings to break this will make a massive difference. You don't need a life with comedowns in it. Been there, it's shit. Keep strong.

Well done admitting the problem.

I'm sorry coco they cause nothing but heartbreak

How are you getting more if you have deleted your supplier?
Please delete all your contacts.
Also consider what could happen if you get into debt with a dealer. These people are brutal and you have a small child to consider.
They are nice to you until you owe them money.
I have heard horrific stories about what has been done to people whio owe money to dealers.

Also, from the times you are posting it's obvious that you're up all night snorting. How can you possibly function with a little one the next day? You must feel awful.

And drug dealers now know where you and your child live.

You need to stop. Coke is so dangerous. What if you have a heart attack? What about damage to your nose?

I am really really worried for you.

You will have a local drugs and alcohol unit that can offer you help.

Do you not feel guilty spending the money on drugs when you have children?

My DD's dad was addicted to cannabis. He started using again and social services found out (I have no contact go though his mam) they completely stopped unsupervised access.

You need to be aware drugs will lose you your children.

I noticed from another thread you posted that you were done for possession and drug driving in October. You have a serious and escalating problem. If you don't stop you will lose your daughter and quite possibly your life.

Guilt tripping usually propels people deeper into avoidance and further use.

Show a little kindness eh? There but for the grace of God and all that.

True. Apologies if I've been too harsh. Am genuinely worried for OP though. She's in a really shit place.

So sorry to hear you're going through a shit time OP but please please reach out & get help in RL (ie referral from your doctor etc) you have a little human being counting in you so please if you can't do this for yourself do it for your LO

Counting on you not in** stupid phone lol

Pinky sorry if I sounded harsh I genuinely wasn't trying to be. My ex losing contact devastated our daughter, I was just trying to point out what could happen.

How are you doing?

Hi there.
It's new year in one day and I'm bloody determined it's my cue to pack it in, push through temptations and nail this.

I did get done for possession and tested roadside positive (for a small amount mind you) and looking at the whole picture I really am ashamed, disappointed, but overall determined.

Obviously I lost my driving license for a year a week ago so I've used coke more than ever as a crutch, but today I brought a beautiful new bike with child seat & im determined to stop hiding away and doing coke and get out and about :-)

I'm going to turn this around, even if I do have to begin 2017 on a tiredness comedown.

I've not slept now for 3 days and if it wasn't new year in one day and a chance to focus I can see this spiralling too.

Good riddance 2016
2017 I'm going to own you!!

Your GP may be able to help. I know there are aids to come of alcohol and heroin but I'm not sure about cocaine.

It's so dangerous you need to stop for your child's sake.

Well done OP. You're doing so well by recognising its an issue and making changes.

It's good that you're feeling so positive.

Well done OP.

Hope 2017 is a fresh start for you.

You can do this, I know how you're feeling, sending love and strength

How are you OP? I just wanted to come by & see how you are doing & if you managed to get some RL help I hope you have managed to get some help & make a new life for yourself & LO