i'm in wiltshire!
It's funny really...when i read what i've typed now- even I wonder why i have not told my GP.
reading what you have said has made me really think about this.
Compared to how your body was, do you now find you can see something to wear that you like...and find the right size...and just wear it?
I ask this cos when i buy anything so much is going on in my head about what length...how wide etc....and i can remember 20 years ago (!!!!) just loving an item of clothing... and wearing it....now i feel so trapped.
Most clothes is so uncomfortable....at 20 i laughed at people wearing 'elasticated back' jeans.... now i understand WHY they exist....you need a huge front of jeans to go round tummy- and the elastic to stop them falling down. How do i know? Cos i wear them!!!
D'you know what triggered all this?
3 weeks ago...i went in the oxfam shop and i found a brand new (tagged) pair of knee high boots- leather- lined with leather too... M&S ....ones i saw last year in m&s for £80...and in the oxfam shop they were only £15. So i tried them on...and they fitted perfect.
However...at home ...i then tried to zip them up...and discovered my calves were too fat.
so there began a long hard look in the mirror....i hated everything. But i love the boots!!!!!
so since then have lost 3.5 pounds....
I know the boots are nothing to do with my tummy...but my tummy is what stops me going out...which traps me in my home...and i think in the past year i have only driven 500 miles.....i have really stopped going anywhere.
so...the boots triggered it all!!!
Then luckily DH saw the C4 embaressing teeage bodies programme- where a 19yr old had a tummy tuck...and the next day he said that if i lost the weight that I WANT TO LOSE (to fit into my boots!)...then next year i CAN have the OP!!!
Thanks so much for replying to all i've said...i do waffle on!