Spots/acne turning me into a rubbish mum

[Troton]

I’ve had acne since I was 13, I’m now 28. It’s been controlled to various degrees over the years with lotions and potions, antibiotics and one course of roaccutane a couple of years ago. It’s currently really bad but as I’m bf my 9 month old I’m limited as to what medications I can take. I’d like to stop bf so I can sort my skin out but baby is so very attached to the boob that I keep putting it off.
The thing is while my skin is awful my confidence is rock bottom. I don’t want to see anyone or take my baby or toddler out to playgroups. I’m angry at my skin and in turn taking out my frustration on the kids and having no patience. I feel like such a crap Mum. I also can’t help worrying that me and my husband have made children that will suffer terribly with their skin (he has very very bad psoriasis) and I feel incredibly guilty about it.
Any suffererers or ex sufferers have any advice? And anyone who doesn’t suffer - how much do you notice acne on other people. I don’t mean a few spots I mean lots angry red pustular spots that are very hard to cover up.
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I do worry about the damage such a strong drug does though

That's only natural, but this is why it's only prescribed by a dermatologist and why you have regular blood tests when you're on it. I think you need to balance the potential risks of a heavy duty medication against the impact of severe acne on your life and wellbeing. It was a no-brainer for me as I was feeling suicidal when I final met my dermatologist. He was a life-saver in every sense of the word.

Absolutely that’s true. At the moment my mental health is suffering a huge amount and the positives of going back on roaccutane are outweighing the negatives

Plus hopefully the low dose/longer course is less damaging than a high dose course.

Having done nearly a week of low sugar and low (almost zero) dairy I’m feeling totally utterly fed up. My skin is no better, two new crops of spots in fact have emerged I’m also hungry all the time and can feel that I’ve lost weight (I don’t want or need to). My face is sore, lumpy and greasy. I’ve booked an appt with the gp for next week. I’m so gutted to have to stop bf though. I feel like it’s really unfair on baby and I’ll be robbing him of his biggest comfort (and my instant way to settle him back to sleep!) He will drink a bottle but he’s not very keen, spits a lot out and messes with the bottle a lot.

Honestly Troton - you've done brilliantly well to bf for this long. Time to look after yourself now.

Honestly I have to really bite my tongue when people post on acne threads about changing diet or some over the counter face cream which will make it all better. IMO either they didn't have acne in the first place or something else happened that caused it to clear up.

I can absolutely assure you that I have severe cystic acne - so bad that medical photographs have been taken by the dermatologist. No dairy and no sugar reduces my acne by 80% and the hormonal supplements have improved control to around 95% if I slip up with diet, the cgsts reappear.
Persevere with the diet at least for 2 months but make sure eat lots of calorie dense foods such as avocado, nuts etc.