My son is almost 9 and has been referred for ASD/ADHD testing through his school. We have been waiting for an appointment for 9 months but have been told the wait is 30 months. I am emotionally exhausted and feel like I’m on the verge of a breakdown.
My son can be so lovely but it’s becoming less and less that I see that side of him. The last few months have been horrendous and I have no idea what to do. He has no patience at all, as soon as he wants something he has to have it otherwise he kicks off (shouting, throwing, hitting things/himself) I almost crashed my car today because he had a huge meltdown over not being allowed to play on his switch, he started throwing things into the front of the car, he was screaming and punching his seat. I am genuinely terrified about what’s happening to him. I just don’t know what to do he doesn’t care about any consequences until I follow through with them and then he has a meltdown and there is nothing I can do to help him. He’s also started running off when he gets angry.
I don’t have a diagnosis yet. I don’t know if I’ll get one my family just think he’s naughty. I’m just at a loss I feel like whatever I do is wrong and that I’m failing him. I don’t remember the last time I didn’t cry myself to sleep.
can anyone offer any advice. I keep having terrible thoughts about killing myself. I dont want to, I don’t want to leave my boys I am just completely lost.