I really don't know what to say or where to start.
Consultant (locum) initially just wanted to ask me why I was there when I have had all the tests and clearly don't have MS - including going through my MRI results with me and telling me that multiple lesions throughout the hemispheres and subcortical white matter is considered to be a normal MRI result for someone of my age by him.
I said I know I don't have MS, I was on a 12 month follow up at my last appointment in September, but I had what they think was two seizures in one night in November and the AMU ordered tests and sent me back here.
He then asked if anyone had seen the seizure, accused dh of being a negligent husband for going back to the restaurant and leaving me when I was ill and therefore not seeing the 'event' (he was joking - I think) and didn't pass comment on the actual seizure at all.
He asked if I had had any more. I said no, but have been having lots of odd, frankly scary events in the night, always on waking and that having noted them down in my diary, I have noticed they seem to cluster around the week before my period, are always between 4.45 and 6.00 am and that there have been 23 of them since 18th December 2012.
He said they did not fit the pattern or symptoms of a seizure, there is no indication from any of my tests of any abnormality that would cause seizures anyway and that other options may be migraine or even cardiac black-out - although they didn't present right for either of those options either.
He said having done all the tests and having a clear MRI, the next step would be to try me on triliptophans? (he had a really strong accent and neither dh could understand a lot of what he said - be both asked him to repeat that and still neither of us got it) but that with no clear 'evidence' of seizures he would be reluctant.
I said I didn't want drugs and I was only there because I'd been bullied into it by friends and family, as I normally don't bother with doctors for myself. He raised an eyebrow to this then just repeated what he'd said.
Then it went quiet, as if he was expecting us to say something, but neither dh or I had a clue what. So, dh said right so you are saying the night time episodes don't appear seizure like and you don't feel meds are appropriate, dw doesn't want meds anyway, so we do nothing?
He said, no that's not what I'm saying. I'm saying next and only course of action left to us is to try tri?? whatevers and see if it stops - but that I am not keen. We have done all the tests we can do on you and I am satisfied there is nothing on the MRI or other tests to suggest a physical cause for seizures.
I then said well what sort of information do you need from us to make a better judgement on what might be going on, could I just go away and keep a clear record of what happens? He said yes that would be helpful - then finally asked dh what he witnessed when I have my nocturnal episodes. I also told him about the CRPS which he deemed irrelevant - I said I thought it would be, but thought I should mention it anyway. I also pointed out that I am peri-menopausal and that we'd noted the clusters of nighttime events around my period and wondered if perhaps whatever is going on is hormonal, rather than neurological - he said that is possible but we can't know. I also pointed out that most of my events have been following several nights of poor sleep.
After speaking to dh, he said he still felt the nighttime events didn't seem to be seizures, but he didn't know what was going on. He said a sleep deprived EEG is not indicated because my first EEG was clear, likewise with a video EEG in hopsital, but that he would order an ambulatory EEG to see if we could catch a nighttime event and that he wants dh to try and video some and that with that plus the diary he would review me in the future.
I said can't we just leave it then, if you think I'm not having seizures and you've already said I have nothing life-threatening based on my test results, so why carry on? He said that there clearly is something wrong, because I am having 'events' of some kind and whether it is psychological, hormonal, migraine, cardiac or something else, he can't say. Then just before I walked out he asked me if I have a stressful life. I said I have had stress over the past couple of years, but that I was well at the worst of it and it is over now. He nodded.
... and that was that.
So, basically he doesn't believe I had the TC in November, because no-one was there to see it and he thinks all my other neuro symptoms are in my head.